Novensiles

Bro.....someone just.....like.....like......I need help?
          I am battling between the debates of posting the first chapter of Heavenly Veil out of the spite that I am calling it shit-that I probably will despise for an eternity.
          I LITTERILY have like 40 drafts in docs-BUT I can not bring myself to post the first chapter because that is how much I hate it!
          It's just-Huh???
          Like bro what is wrong with me??? Like why do I do this to myself??? (┬┬﹏┬┬)
          And dueling out with the Actor AU is going to destroy me-I MEAN IT ALREADY DOES AND NOW I AM AS CONFUSED AS I HAVE EVER BEEN ON WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING
          
          .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·. 
          
          
          Sooooooo, if I just start posting random stuff-it's because my brain is everywhere. And if the writing is messy-it's because that is my struggle speaking now.

Soooooooo-totally like not in 37 drafts right now and realizing I have yet to give my Ame in Heavenly Veil an ability....
          I HAVE THE IDEA
          But it isn't concrete(full proof) yet (┬┬﹏┬┬)
          
          Sooooo-I would like to know what kind of abilities you think a countryhuman would have. (●'◡'●)
          Mine for Poland and Germany are quite interesting, as well Finland and Canada-you can say they are overpowered but I don't plan to nerf them at all-lolヾ(⌐■‿■)ノ♪

You guys are gonna become bewildered by the type of actor playing Soviet Union-
          
          (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

Sneak peek of CH Actor AU!
          
          (Future Actor) Tildan Darlington: "You've got to be kiddin' me." They slid their legs across the platform for their feet to touch the marble ground. "You want me—," he gestures to himself with crimson polish nails, his diamond rings catching the stage lightings, "—to role in some series call 'Heavenly Veil'. Mind you—I have no experience in acting." They state cooly and handed the document back. "So, what can you possibly gain—besides my status at your side, to think of hiring me?" His leg crossed over atop the other as they leaned back with a hand on the platform holding their posture up.
          
          Synthos: "Because your personality is what will make this character alive!" He said with a plaster grin and exaggerated hands in the air. "Mr. Darlington-you resonate with spotlight charisma, with passion, with beauty of exhilaration! I can't find a better fit other then you to pull off this role!"
          
          (Future Actor) Tildan Darlington: They hum with unimpressed slanted eyes. "Mhm. I heard better reasons then that." Synthos pride has been struck. "But you've mentioned about a co-lead, right?" Synthos nods rapidly. "Who would the other person be? Someone with experience I hope."
          
          Snythos: His lips thin on itself. A moment of silence pass. "Well... no-But hey, who said you need a lot of experience to pull off a series." They laugh nervously as Tildan raises an eyebrow, very much so unimpressed.
          
          Hey everyone, since the post day has been prolonged till later, I brought in this snippet. I am pretty sure by now you can guess who Mr. Darlington will be staring as. ["co-lead' *Wink-Wink*]
          
          So wish me luck in getting my laptop back soon!

Guys my laptop has a virus, if I didn't post yesterday-it was because of that and it is still be resolved, I am on my phone so hopefully nothing will be taken from me on my laptop or reach my phone (┬┬﹏┬┬)

Sneak Peek! Of CountryHumans AU (A More Human AU)
          
          (Future Actor) Snevalin Miloslav: "Is joke, yes? You must be joking." He said, flicking his eyes up from the paper to meet with the wide grinning Snythos.
          
          Snythos: "Not at all!" They replied with flashing a thumbs up.
          
          (Future Actor) Snevalin Miloslav: Their brow twitches as they look Snythos dead in the eyes. "Nyet. Is not happening."
          
          Snythos: "Ack-" Their pride has been struck, "WHAT!? NO! You must! We need a russian!!"
          
          (Future Actor) Snevalin Miloslav: Slams the door on their face.
          
          Snythos: Places hands firmly on their hips and turns to look at his sisters with a frown. "Fuck."
          
          Six more days until it comes out! Two characters are fully made, hope to get three more in before then! BBBBBBBYYYEEEE! ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
          
          Also who can guess Snevalin Miloslav is acting as in Heavenly Veil (¬‿¬)

I just found your story and freaked over it "Heavenly Vail." I loved the way you write and then ofc I come to look at you profile cause yes, I'm like that. THEN I SEE YOU SAVED MY BOOK!? 
          
          I freaked over your writing style and found out you read my crappy book makes me want to cry. I love your book and hope you keep updating it!
          
          Please don't stress when it comes to updating and keep yourself safe! Hope you have an amazing month! <3

Renewal is the ideal. As time goes on, I change drastically at will- fitting for my treasure and despises. I will only follow from story interests; I want only peace in my space.
          From being away for more than a week, I had a lot of notifications, I read still but didn't bother to look. After binge reading on the greatest stories, I ever came across- invested like it was a drug, I took some time to myself and realized I needed to change... to become the person I wish to be on wattpad and around others. But I also didn't want any more connections- I can hardly keep up that flood around like traffic with talks of life and problems.
          When I came to wattpad, it was to escape reality- not be dragged into others. Not to be reminded of my own life and lives I know.
          Perhaps I don't fill like I have been given enough attention, or maybe the me that is broken shouts in statements that I am heartless- that I don't care for others as I make myself out to because... It was fun to get to know another, even if that life only last for a second.
          *Sighs*
          
          [To my wives]
          I am not looking for anything after I post this, I feel nothing I suppose. My wives, my dear friends. As to put this the easiest way possible- I did want to do many things with you, I want that lovely feeling even if it is false, I want that time we share like we did months ago, but. I can no longer see past in the lies I spin like nature. *Breathes* In other words our platonic relationship that I am in with you, you may consider me an old shadow. I wish nothing the best to each and every one of you. And ask for the forgiveness of promises I gave without consideration of the fact, I, would be the one to break apart and become the lair I dreamed I would never be. I hope we can be mutual between each other, though I feel nothing at the moment writing this down, I know it will sink and I will drown. When and if we do converse, I might let an apology slip out of regret or pity, please ignore it because I wish not to face it.