I know I just got back on this site, but at this point. I can vent here with nobody else able to see these, I've never felt so disappointed with myself, how angry I am to myself, how much I wanted to disappear from this very earth. Everynight is just I can't sleep because I keep thinking about the world without me. As edgy as it may sound, I'm being thorough as much as I can with my honesty, I don't know if I should tell anyone about this. Anyone who knows me. And I mean ME.