So I know every one has been asking for updates and so on, but right now, I don't see myself writing any time soon. My life is such a mess right now and it's feels like nothing I ever do is good enough..I'm sorry that I disappoint you guys by not updating, apparently I do that a lot, dissappoint people. I am terribly sorry guys. I don't even feel like being here anymore..as for everyone that has been reading and voting and commenting, I appreciate it all, I see all the comments and I'm sorry that I don't get to replying..everything is just a serious mess for me right now. I am really sorry