Someone

I hope you're okay. That you enjoy life. That you're not hurting after the operation. 
          
          That you have a crush on someone. That you'll end up with them. 
          
          That you'll be happy.
          
          Even if I don't understand something. You were SO lesbian when I met you. You were always telling me ''what are you, you are lesbian or not'' and I had to know what I was for you...and now you also like boys
          
          I'm so lost
          
          Where did you go...
          
          That's none of my concern right...

I don't think you ever think about me. I think about you daily. Like, not obsessive way. Just, small things remind me of you. 
          
          You don't miss me. Understandable, in a way. But how do I still miss you
          
          Like tf
          
          Still not as a lover but even as friends. Just as having you around. Without the distance, it would have been so easier. Hanging out after school. Hugging, actually. My mother would have taken it way better... no fights about being distants or jealous.
          
          Playing board games, hugging, cuddling, like we planned to do. 
          
          Would have it worked if distance wasn't the problem...? I wish I had the answer. Cause why does the best people always live so far away from me..? 
          
          Guess we'll never know. Maybe one day I'll go to Austria, drop flowers in your mailbox and ask you for a meeting in a park. 
          
          Gosh. I used to be romantic for you. Why can't I just move on. But I can't bring myself to forget about you. Your fav flowers. Fav perfume. Fav everything. I just want you close. Would help me moving on. Or actually fall in love again. Cause it was such a lie when I said I lost feelings. I never did. But it was better for you and me.
          
          I hate myself for that. I'm sorry, Méli.

Why do I still care, dammit. 
          
          But I do, I can't really change that. 
          
          A promise is a promise. I'll always be there. I know you won't come but I'll still be there.

I found all the olds comments of ours
          
          Seemed so in love. 
          
          Do you remember the fact that you were the first who wanted to break up ? I had to hold the pieces together to stay with you. But in the end, you were right, you were better off without me. 
          
          Why does it matter so much, I don't get it
          
          Especially 3 years later, like it didn't really affect me then boom. 
          
          We had soooo many projects and dreams. I hope you'll realise them, on my side I will. It's just sad it won't be together
          
          I know you hate me now in fact. You blame me for everything
          
          Maybe you're right, but I don't see it that way. 
          
          Anyway, bybye

You blocked me everywhere. Good job dearie
          
          Well not here, neither snap, neither WhatsApp, neither messages... I still have ur phone number lol
          And adress too
          
          I wanted, like a year ago, to send you flowers
          
          But I also saw you have eyes on someone, congrats ! So I don't wanna ruin your chances (if I sent flowers it wouldn't be to take you back) (I don't want you back)
          
          But anyway. I hope you're happy and in anyway I'll still text u here just cause I wanna (in anyway you'll never see lmao)
          
          Bubyeeee

I SEE YOUR REPOSTS LOL
          
          NO I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE DARLING LMAO
          
          I CARE, THAT'S IT. LOL, NO I'M NOT IN LOVE, NO I WOULDN'T GET IN COUPLE WITH YOU AGAIN, NO

Hi.
          
          I think you lost this acc so i'll just write things down here. Maybe one day you'll see it, even tho i know you want nothing with me anymore lol.
          
          I don't understand why you deleted me on snap. I did nothing wrong. I texted you again, hoping we could start over, even just as friends. I'm too proud to say it, but I missed you. I still do in a way lol
          
          Not amorously. I mean it's strange inside me. I'm not in love lol, it was 4 years ago. But I still care, somehow. I just wanna now you're okay. 
          
          You'll hate me lol, but I'm still stalking your tt acc. On the only acc you never blocked. I see your reposts and I often ask myself if they're about me, if you really hate me. 
          
          I don't jate you. Never did.
          
          Since you'll never see it, i'll explain it here later. 
          
          It's strange, gives me the feeling you're here, so it helps me not to stalk you too much. 
          
          Anywayyyy bye

Never try to separate happy couples. Otherwise your live gets worse someone said once.
          ~ No one separates us otherwise they end up dead say we 
          ;) ( aimed on someone ) 

I miss her ~
          I love her ~ 
          I want her in my arms ~