@Melisity
How do things change so fast I am truly a fuck up I promise myself so many things and break them " I won't do it again " never believe that statement
'' The hard part about everything happens for a reason is waiting for the reason'' well i think i found the reason and he makes me extremely happy ^u^ <3
Updates ( kinda) :
I'm gonna start using this account again and maybe publish some stories
I'm still hiding my real identity because i feel comfortable that way
And I'm not deleting any of my past posts because its okay to not be okay so i will look back and think look i got over that i can get over anything now <3
So i created this account as an outlet when i was highly depressed i'm happy to say iv recovered majorly and i'm very proud of myself maybe ill talk about it if anyone wants to hear it but for now im good ^u^
Through all the sadness and pain at least i can say i'm one month clean again <3 you may break me down everyday and tell me awful things but you will not make me bleed once again i will fight the cravings again just how did for the year before you ruined me for the second time
You're telling me it's the only way out i believe you but i'm scared i guess i just need to prepare myself so i'm ready and can't back out. You won .... are you happy ? will you leave me alone?
- Seeing their face physically and mentally breaks me because that face belongs to such good memories but the person the face belongs to physically belongs to so many bad memories ones that cover the good ones because of how painful they are how can something that brings such joy brings twice the amount of pain also -
not directed at a certain person it could be said for many people just basicly a face can bring different memories than the person who has that faces personality
I can't be in another relationship where every night i go to sleep wondering if its the last day i will be theirs ~
You took my life and wont give me it back
i wanna speak you say no
i wanna go out you give me unbearable fear
i wanna live you tell me to die
you're horrible to me yet i believe you because you're all i'v ever known
To depression From me
Depression took my life , It wont give me it back ~