Stuck in a continuous loop of letting myself fall then messily picking myself up again. Blaming someone at this point would only make things worse. 
Knowing this is my own doing is what allows me to crawl and push my way back up into the real world. 
Sometimes with a little help. 
Many things have become a crutch for me. Although my skills may not be the best, it's the pleasure of doing things such as writing and drawing that keep me safe. 
In the middle of struggling with my troubles, I have created two Personal Characters for stories or any other form of writing. 
They're easy to spot since they are commonly the main character(s) in my stories. Their true origins are usually not revealed within a story, I use various versions of them to match the story I am creating. 
If you have any questions or requests, please dont hesitate to message me. ^^