Melodic_Musicals

HEARTSTOPPER SEASON 2 IS SO GOOD OMG

Watching and Dreaming >>>

Ok been a while since my little rants but has anyone ever been in love with someone they can’t have? Bc this is painful as hell.

Being called
          
          -”not my type”
          -like my annoying little sister
          While also talking about how my state is the “middle child no one likes” 
          
          All within the span of one week is like a stab in the heart with each statement

When I was younger I told myself I wouldn't be the person to fall in love and let myself get distracted to the point where I started doing bad at school
          
          And yet here I am failing both my math quiz and the requiz because I've been too focused on a heartbreak and have not studied and wasn't in the mind space to concentrate on the quiz
          
          Little miss perfect that's meeeee

^^
          
          My life is so depressing istg
          
          I've been planning this surprise for months for the person I've been talking about. I came to see their show and brought a wrapped and decorated bucket of candy, wrote like 4 paragraphs in a card, and wore a t-shirt with their name on it to support them. They're amazing but this person is really really REALLY blind when it comes to me.
          
          Anyways if you read above how I mentioned someone asked them to homecoming... Well apparently stuff went down and my friend ended up giving the other person their jacket bc the other person was waiting out in the cold while it was raining just to walk with my friend to the building. So apparently my friend is the main character and I'm the side character.
          
          IT GETS BETTER because the homecoming is the day of karaoke night for my theatre. And usually I wouldn't be upset if my friend couldn't attend but I told them about karaoke weeks ago but it seems they forgot. And we missed the last karaoke night (if you've been keeping up for a while this was the time I was crying and they came to my show with garlic knots) But I'm not going to stop them from going to homecoming just because my feelings were hurt. Our school doesn't have homecoming, so this may be one of the only times try can experience a highschool homecoming and I'm not going to stop that. Again, I was their best friend before In even started liking them so it's a higher priority to make sure they're happy. Even if it goes against what is like.

^^^
          
          And just a couple hours later someone asked them to homecoming (at a different school) and they sad yes and now I'm helping them decipher whether it was platonic or if the person was actually asking them out

To those who have been keeping up with my hopeless love life...
          
          My friend / person I have a crush on was playing with my hair bc afterwards they said “now you look presentable” so I say back “was it that much of a mess before?” and they had the audacity to say to me “you always look like a mess-” 
          
          And Ik they're joking but I play along and dramatically pretend to be wounded but then they apologized and said AND I QUOTE “I'm just joking, you're the prettiest girl in the world” ... BDFNKJNHVUHGVFTXEXTBON MY BRAIN CANNOT PROCESS THIS idr how I reacted but internally I was dying

Yes, im listening to Little Miss Perfect while reading the Owl House comics while at a celebration for church
          
          And yes the best place to advertise this is Wattpad bc why not

Visited the person I like at their work and bought a bar of chocolate and we were laughing the whole time so that was really fun
          
          But I posted the fact that I was visiting a friend on my snap and a picture of the chocolate and one of our mutual friends correctly guessed which friend I was visiting and concluded it was because I liked them…
          
          …they were right
          
          I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m not being a good actor and that it’s true; people are blind to people having a crush on them bc now Ik I’m being obvious  also they should know I like them bc that was an expensive bar of chocolate-