Melyn-L-Kit

All of the drivers are complaining about the cars and they don’t look fun on the track :( 
          	
          	Why F1, just why?

__J__A__K__E__

@Melyn-L-Kit Yeah these new regulations feel like they're a huge disaster...
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Melyn-L-Kit

I've spent the last half an hour, maybe forty minutes just rereading my old work and reading comments that people have left and it is the sweetest thing. I actually cried a little bit I was so taken aback. It's been years since I've even looked at my older things, and I was a terrible writer... God I hate the writing so much, but for some reason thousands of people decided to take five minutes out of their day to read it, that is so surreal. 
          
          I haven't posted in years, I have over 180 followers that are strictly from my young angsty teen era, I'm pretty much living in the past, this was all in late 2020 and early 2021, I was 15, going on 16, still in high school and still naive. I'm five years removed, in university, I turn 21 this year. I don't even remember this part of my life very well, my highest read book has 119k reads and I can't even fathom it. I miss being a stupid teenager with no responsibility and the desire to just write for hours on end for days on end. I still want to write even now, but I have so little time and I feel like I can't waste energy doing this when I could be bettering my career. I think I take life too seriously nowadays, I need to learn not to care... I've been telling myself that for years, and still I can't do it, it's hard. Even though I miss being a teen, I'm glad I'm grown up now.
          
          Reading the comments that people left on my books gives me energy and inspiration, I'm really happy that I made people happy with my writing, it was worth it. I was so free spirited with what I wrote, I'm envious. Nowadays I'm scared to even have imagination, I wish I could write without being a perfectionist.
          
          I feel like a fossil, God. I'm going to stop going on this site so much, I don't read fan fiction anymore and I don't really write it either, nostalgia and routine keep me here I suppose...

Melyn-L-Kit

@__J__A__K__E__ Thank you, I really appreciate that :)
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__J__A__K__E__

@Melyn-L-Kit 
            
            You should do what's best for you, and if that means breaking your routine and stepping away from Wattpad then I say go for it.
            
            The one problem with growing up, is the fact you grow up. The nostalgia is still there but you'll never be able to recapture that feeling. But that's not a bad thing. You're different now, you've grown up and that's okay.
            
            The fact you've managed to inspire people (myself included) is a huge achievement within itself and you should be proud of what you've done. You can do other things, go on other sites, take a break from writing, pursue other hobbies. You're young, you have time to figure stuff out. And if you ever want a hit of nostalgia, Wattpad will always be here.
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Melyn-L-Kit

I’m so tired. It doesn’t feel like Christmas at all :(

__J__A__K__E__

@Melyn-L-Kit I had quite a nice one but I was straight back to work after Boxing Day lol. It's good you've taken the time to shut off and relax though!
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REDNINJA88

@Melyn-L-Kit thx. Christmas was great. :)
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Melyn-L-Kit

@REDNINJA88 It was nice, thanks. I hope you had a good Christmas as well :)
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Melyn-L-Kit

I’m scared to have a kid in this world. 
          
          I’d love to have one, but I just think the future is becoming way too dystopian… I don’t want a child to grow up in such a fragile and frankly terrible world. 
          
          I wouldn’t even have a child in this climate, so what hope should I have for the future? 
          
          It’s really sad. 
          
          I’m 20 years old and thinking about the future of my potential children :/ let’s not…