@Memory_Breeze I don’t really know what I can say for reassurance, but I really hope you can find a better mental state <3 maybe lay off PJO for a bit if you have to? Not saying you do, but if it is such a big part of your life that they’ve become physically real, I’d try and get into a different fandom.
Like HP or, all of the books by Kate O’Hearn are really good :3 the series Pegasus is also Greek mythology and follows a human name Emily who bonds with Pegasus. Then there’s also a sequel kind of called “Titan”, I haven’t finished it but it’s really good. Aaand I’m planning on rereading her series “Valkyrie”, cause I read it like two years ago and I remember it being SOO good.
Also, Jennifer Lynn Alvarez is a great author too. She has one of my favorite ever series—Riders of The Realm. Though, it’s technically a sequel to her other series Guardian Herd, which is also phenomenal btw. I’d recommend GH first butttt… I accidentally read RoTR first and it was fine, there wasn’t many spoilers besides the contestants for the “final fight” lol
Love ya <3