Vent Page

i'm getting better ❤️

If we only live to die, what's the point of living?

haha
          
          death sounds nice

Random thought: I could hang myself on the swing set the park
          
          One of the things I get worried about is a branch not being able to hold my weight
          
          Ahaa
          I’m not even sad rn

Damn
          I was clean for almost a month
          Now I can't wear shorts anymore

AIJABSUDSKBEHDIDJS dear god I hate my life 

Laying on the floor ticking after crying so much I have a headache trying to decide wether to cut or purge first isn't as fun as one would think-

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          Fuck... I'm bulimic...

Nothing I do will actually be enough
          She doesn't actually like me, he's only putting up with me to make me happy, I made her dependent on me and now I want to leave, I'm fat, ugly, annoying, rude, impulsive, self-centered, narcissistic, selfish, cruel, disgusting, I get in the way of everyone and everything 24/7, I cry too much, I'm too needy and clingy, I bring my problems onto other people, I hurt them and play with their feelings, I'm too high-maintenance, I push people away, I bribe, manipulate, and blackmail people into telling me things, I take too much from them without giving them anything back, if I kill myself I'll finally be out of the way and nobody will have to deal with me anymore but then they're be a chain reaction of suicides because everybody "cares" soooo much about me, I make everything about myself, I can't just sit and suffer in silence like everyone else because I need to be "special", should spend more time with her and stop taking advantage of everyone.... fuck

AHHHHHH