Guess what,,, I'm getting therapy!!!
Can I vent? Yeah I will.
I didn't know my dad til I was 8, didn't see him for more than 30 mins a day. It was like living with a stranger. So when my parents got divorced, it was awful. I was going to an almost stranger's house every week. And I'm shy, I have severe social anxiety (which is getting worse) so it made everything harder. I still fear my dad, im still not comfortable telling him anything, and I doubt I ever will be. So that's one of the main reasons im getting therapy, the other being my mental state is deteriorating rapidly. And the thoughts are coming back. So I will still be trying to update when I can, but it will be even less frequent.
Social anxiety is kicking my ass.