Metoile1

EID MUBARAK TO EVERYONEEE

AstroViola

hello, i meant to send this earlier this week but then i forgot because of all the stress :(( ive seen your message on my announcement board but i was rather too burnt out to respond back then. i'm extremely busy with my academics right now. ive my exams from the 2nd of july til the 1st of august so ive been preparing. im wayyyy behind my syllabus and actually terrified. but i just wanted to come down here and lyk that i haven't forgotten about you. you're one of the people that i care about a lot. i hope you're doing well and becoming the bestest version of yourself everyday. and by that i don't mean some polished ideal version. i mean whatever version of you that feels happy!! i always want you happy. the happiest, actually. you're a really kind, and empathetic angel and i love that about you. never change, sweetheart :)) i love you, regardless everything.
          
          xoxo,
          your wattpad older sister
          violaaaaa

Metoile1

@AstroViola DWWW IM PISSED AT MY PARENTS TO SO IT'S OKKKK!! My dad keeps sending me islamic videos to watch so I keep sending him feminist and women's rights videos cuz yeah. As a really devote (although not too strict) muslim, I keep sending videos on how the fathers of today twist the words of the quran to try keep control of women, even tho God literally created rules to protect women FROM men. So yeah! I'm slowly getting better cuz I WENT 2 DAYS WITHOUT VOMITING WOOHOOOOO I've js been dealing with the mh by reading lots of wattpad fics (the boy who had no choice is a masterpiece 1000/10 would NOT recommend )
            I go back to schl on Monday and this heatwave in the UK is doing my head in but it's js the humidity tbh like I can stand abt 40 degrees Celsius in my home country but in UK? NO WAYYYYY JOSEEE anyways I hope everything is going SOSO well for u and how r U doing? Thanks for having my back all the time! ♡♡☆
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AstroViola

@Metoile1 oh, sweetie, i'm terribly sorry to hear that your mental health has been getting worse again. i'm so glad that you have your friends by your side. friends are the bestest, istg. im so pissed at your parents for calling you overdramatic, they're so neglectful, it's disgusting and not okay AT ALL. i hope you recover from the panic attack episodes soon. I'm so proud of your grades, you brilliant soul!! also, im so excited for your birthday. have the best birthday ever. you deserve it so much aaaaaa. i'll come back here in 5 more days and wish you <333
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Metoile1

@AstroViola OMG HOW DARE WATTPAD HIDE THIS FROM ME  OK, so a lot to say here, I've finished my exams, it's my birthday soon. I've been meaning to check up on u as well but my mh has been getting worse n worse again and the thoughtd are coming back. Thankfully, my friends somehow figured it out by stalking my tt reposts to ONE video that I accidentally reposted instead of js liked. I've never felt more seen and ig this Yr is finally going a bit more right. I've been vomiting from anxiety non-stop tho and my parents are telling me I'm overdramatic but that is a-ok. I deal with it. My panic attacks have gotten put of control, but my friends know which helps a lot. I GOT 95% ON MY MATHS AVERAGE!! I usually get really good bc I'm naturally smart (very thankful for that), but this year they've been sliding bc of my mh. On the winter tests I got an 85% but for summer I got 95% which I'm rlly proud of. I hope you're doing rlly well and that you're safe n healthy. My birthday is in a week so that's nice. I genuinely hope you pass with flying colours on ur assessments and that you have a summer full of side quests. If u wanna follow my secret tt it's secretaccgirl179 but yeah! I feel so appreciated that u took ur time to type it out for me.
            
            Xoxo, 
            M (again, I really wanted to put gossip girl)
            Ur Internet younger sis! <3
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Metoile1

I'm sure we're taller in another dimension
          You say we're small and not worth the mention
          -White Ferrari by Frank Ocean
          
          I can't move on, baby doll
          Waitin' on calls, flippin' through stations
          I'm outclassed and it's outrageous
          And I'll take it all, baby doll
          Whatever's been weighin' you down
          -Babydoll by Dominic Fike
          
          Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?
          Like you're not really happy, but you don't wanna die
          Like you're hanging by a thread, but you gotta survive
          'Cause you gotta survive
          Like your body's in the room, but you're not really there
          Like you have empathy inside, but you don't really care
          Like you're fresh out of love, but it's been in the air
          Am I past repair?
          -Numb Little Bug by Em Beihold
          
          Wish I could stop and Im not joking
          Drinking too much and socially smoking
          Wish I could stop, and start to behave and then wake up in the morning and never miss a day again
          -Beer Fear by Lucy Spraggan
          
          Feels like we're on the edge right now
          I wish that I could say I'm proud
          I'm sorry that I let you down
          Le-le-let you down
          All these voices in my head get loud
          I wish that I could shut them out
          I'm sorry that I let you down
          Le-le-let you down
          Let You Down by NF

AstroViola

Hiii, my love!! Just checking up on you!! Hope you're doing well <3

Metoile1

@AstroViola sometimes u js have to have nice weather 
            Like that's the only motivation for me. But ykw is actual bullying? I come out of my school to NOT ONE BUT 2 ICE CREAM VANS (I'm fasting) I walk to the park, I SEE ANOTHER ONE. AND THE CAFE IN THE PARK SELLS ICE CREAM. THATS FOUR BLOODY PLACESSSS AAHAHAHHAAH
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AstroViola

@AstroViola stop parks are aweeeeeeesome!! I wish I lived in the UK. I almost never go out blehhhh. 
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Metoile1

@AstroViola aww thank u for the love and care! I'm doing well js have to get the next chapter of my fic out, so I js have to finish the text mssges! School is good and I'm really happy bc I went to the park today (live in London so it's about 7 pm rn) and the fresh air is delicious 
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