how_are_u_today?

should i just rewrite  or disappear again? college is not giving

okay so im back but not entirely back. cause i have been thinking of creating my own blog (with wix) to create my own writing blog of some sort. where i would post my fanfics, one-shots, drabbles, and other stuff. but most importantly, my original works there. and thinking of putting my original work first, i might get pressured and all of that. so i thought i would rewrite one of my fanfics from bungou stray dogs instead. its published in ao3 but im not really used to writing there.
          
          so yea... i might put the link here and hope i would get back to writing soon

so im like trying to get used to ao3 cause im thinking of posting ao3 exclusive works there and i was looking for a tag for small friend group. but no. 
          
          ao3 was like: we don't have a tag for small friend groups but we do have a tag for small p*nis.

im in a writer's block. a really tough one at that. especially after i read my Chinese horoscope for the year. i know i shouldn't believe stuff like that but i really cant help it when it's just so personal or something. it said something that i would get recognition by a small group, i was fine with that. then it said something that i should practice and gain more experience and i got more excited to get back to writing. and then, in the end, it said something along the lines of that what i know is not enough? i really don't know. but it's like that. and i just recalled that it's almost been ten years since i've started writing and this horoscope told me i did not know enough. and i got mad a bit cause what in the hell have i been doing then? if this is not enough then when will it be enough. so im gonna put all of my works on hiatus and see if my enough isn't really enough. cause i do love writing and i don't want to stop. if there is a chance im going to be better or be the best, im going to take that chance. im not sure when will i get back here but i want to make sure when i do, i want to make something that's going to be deserving to be my number one book.

i just got back to playing hades again and i got rejected by fucking achilles. i could've given all of that ambrosia to my father! MY FATHER!

sooo..... anyone want to see kojutsu getting married?

i literally am stuck on the chapter where i have to explain the magic and the history of the world in One More Life. its disgusting on how am i taking this long. theres this part of me that wants the type of worldbuilding/history chapter like the story in Please Let me Live A Lazy Life (a book in Wattpad, its included in one of my reading lists) or just do me. like just decide cause i really want to make Ainsley shitty

hey i know updates are really going slow as of the moment but the anxiousness in my chest isnt really going away. like im going to be a college student after graduating, im a fucking adult. like, its the sudden realization is something that i really dont wanna go through or completely process? i dont know but i will try to update as much as i can

fifth harmony's song i'm in love with a monster sounds so similar to that one song in high school musical with sharpay in the cafeteria. especially the bitter the better part like.... it gives me so much high school musical vibes.

i just saw that disney twisted wonderland is getting an English version but for some fucking reason i cant play it cause its not available in my country. TwT