MichaelsPokaBalls
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I broke your heart without even knowing I was. I went into our relationship, or what I insisted was a 'friendship' not knowing what the hell I was doing.
I didn't want us to be serious, for the fact that I'm just not ready, so I pushed you away. The sad thing is I really did want to be with you. I wanted to be with you, but there was something much stronger than my 'love' for you that held me back.
I'm sorry I treated you the way I did. Nobody deserves that. I treated you like a side dish I could just throw away when I was finished, and I'm sorry. I'm not sure why I did that. I think part of me was just afraid. Afraid that i' d actually get attached and you'd hurt me, so I just cut you lose before you could do the same to me.
I acted like an immature child, because I am an immature child. However, i did tell you from the beginning that I didn't want a serious relationship. I told you I don't even love myself, so there was possibly no way for me to give you the love you were so desperate for. So it wasn't completely my fault. Yes, I did let things go on, me knowing Damn well I didn't care about you as you did me. I let things go on knowing we were going nowhere.
You knew though. I think you knew. I told you for fucks sake. I spelled it out for you. So You must have known, even just a little. You continued on, knowing everything I knew. Yet, you still had the audacity to treat me, and talk to me like it was my fault it "ended". (Though there was never really anything to end)
It'd be too soon if you ever saw me again huh?? Well fuck you too. And I'm sorry.
