Mickaela Corpuz

I'm leaving a note again for my future self, I got used to the stress now(I think) college is bearable with our friends. Our dream to go to Japan is near just hang on a little more. By the way, don't trust males they are a hazard so stay away from them. That piece of shit I met on the game turns out to be an asshole, he really thinks I want him, I'm not looking for romance I'm only looking for friends and we did, we have a lot of them and they are all nice. Also don't forget to have fun like mama says, if something happens, it means to happen even if it's bad. I'm still confused if I still like the boy we liked in high school, he told me he wants to be a nurse because his whole family is a nurse but he's afraid of syringes so I don't have any updates of him right now. Anyways that's all it's getting late here and I need to do laundry tomorrow. Ciao

I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS BREAK!! I'LL BE BACK HERE IF GOT THERE BUT FIRST I SHOULD ENJOY THE REMAINING TIME.

Im not used to this kind of feelingThis is so uncomfortable?

My whole body is aching. Why this things happen to me when the only thing I want is to have a simple life. My mental health can't keep up. Everytime the attention of the people around me everytime I speak or when I'm alone, I can't hear a single sound and my whole body is shaking. I want to ask for help but I don't want to burden others. I always told myself that I can do it but my fear will always be there with me. Is fear is my enemy or a friend. What should I do?

I want to quit. 

Im just only first year college and I DONT WANT IT ANYMOREE! Im exhausted! WE WANT A BREAK!!! WE DESERVE IT!! After we graduated señior high school, we only got 4 weeks of break instead of the original 10 to 12 weeks.Mid Term is just in two weeks and one of my subject just started  last week.WTF?!
          I don't know what to do anymore.

Im congratulating myself for surviving high school and to my friends that actually support me I really appreciate it they made me happy.

I always tell myself that Im happy for you because you found someone that will take care of you and will be always there for you but I know to myself every time I see you with that someone there's a pain on my chest that I can't explain and I think I know why...

ako lang pala nag iisip na magkakaibigan tayo sana nong una palang sinabi niyo na ganyan pala.