And then when I told her about what happened with my cousin she cries asking me why I never told her, like how I’m I supposed to tell you when whenever I tried to talk to you u told me to go to my room because you where playing with them and on top of that I didn’t even know you, sure I know you were my mom but sure as hell didn’t act like one, you were completely a stranger to me, and to this day I we’ll never get why u paid more attention to someone who didn’t need it, than to your own child, when the only ‘love’ you gave me was making me drink oil and hitting me when I did something you didn’t like, like stop, you won’t there when I was a child, why do you want to be with me now, how do I trust someone I don’t know, how can my sister trust you, why did you show love to everyone but me, why huh I haired wanted some of it I didn’t need all of it maybe a simple good morning or a I love you would have been enough for me or a hug anything, that’s all I wanted, but no what I got was hits and screaming and hit marks, and you telling me that I was to fat that now when I look at myself in the mirror I see some fat pig, why did you do this to me, I thought you didn’t want to be like my grandma, when you just like her, I never asked for much so why
I guess this is another part of my rant, anyway I might continue to put more here later today but rn I’m gonna go sleep gn