I really hope you get better and find the help you need Miko. I know I don't really know you or anyone you know, but I promise; someone on this earth cares. Even if 99 percent of the population hated you, There would still be almost 100,000 people that love or like you. The world can change for you, but you should never feel like you should change for the world. If you don't think anyone cares, know that I do, and so do your followers.