I honestly can't keep being the therapist friend, i just help people but when is going someone to tell me "what's going on?" "Reminder to eat and drink water" "I'm proud of you" "you're the best" "you're my best friend too" because everytime someone's my best friend im not theirs, im just another friend who's always happy and i hate when i want to yell it out loud everything that comes out is a choked scream, I can't even cry but i want to, i want to be capable of what i was capable when i was happy, i want to be happy again, why am i feeling like this? I thought it got better... What happened to me? I can't even recognize who's in the mirror Infront of me.... Who am i really?
