sorry this is kinda vent-ish but uhh its the actual reason why i havent been posting. basically i started posting edits this summer (i've been an editor since like late 2023 almost 2024) and i got some friends there. but over the time my mental health got so fvcked up (this summer) and i lost motivation for everything i used to love including writing, and im trying to start writing again but its hard.. sorry i'll do my best