Hey y'all!!
I'm here to share something very personal, a burden I've been carrying for way too long, a war I've been fighting alone in silence.
I want to get it off my chest a little bit and what better place than here?
I turned 30, I've been married for 5yrs to my best friend. A full time professional, doing very well in my career, handling home and work like a pro! I knew my husband very well, being his best friend, knew he had anger issues and me being calm, emotionally intelligent, I thought I could handle this.
What I didn't know until much later was that he has OCPD it's a personality disorder, very similar to narcissism. They lack empathy and cannot for their life come out of their self obsession. I've been abused physically, emotionally, mentally and financially! It's still happening. I'd left home, had decided to get a divorce in May this year but he asked for another chance and me being the empath thought I owed him that and came back after a month. Things seemed to get better for about a month and boom we're back to square one.
He's doing therapy individually, we're also taking couple therapy, nothing's working because he just cannot see where he is going wrong. He has entitlement issues, thinks his anger is justified no matter what the issue is.
I knew I've gotta walk out but was trauma bonded (yes, it's real and you need help)
I've been working on myself through a private psychologist, improving every day and I think I'm now ready emotionally to end this marriage. However it's not easy because everything has to be secretive. There's no way he'll let me go peacefully.
I have a long grueling journey ahead but I'm gonna do it for me, my sanity and for the happiness and respect I deserve!
Thanks for letting me share! Much love ❤️
