Recently, about 6 months or so, I have started to stan SHINee. I love the beautiful music they make. But most importantly, I love them as the type of loving, caring people they are. I love them because of their morals and personalities. I was really happy today im the morning. The sun wasn't shining, bit regardless, I was happy for once. And that's something that doesn't happen often. And then, i hear that a beloved angel of ours, Kim Jonghyun committed suicide. My heart sank to the bottom, and it is still there. I wish I could have done to keep this from happening, from keeping him from hurting. Whenever I remember his name and who he was, I remember his smile, his words, his laugh. He left this cruel world all the while giving us hope for the better this whole time. Thank you, Jonghyun. Thank you for all that you have given and done, for all that I haven't been able to give back. I take your words and smile and will keep passing it forward. I will try my hardest to give back what you had given me: hope and happiness. I'm sorry I wasn't able to do anything.