(This is a rant)
I hate how they made me practice the walk, told me that I did well and got better at it, just to replace me with someone else. I hate that I worked hard and practiced for nothing. Like do they even see me as their friend anymore? It feels like they're just letting me hang around them. I feel out of place.
I don't even make any effort to join in their conversations anymore because they always ignore me when I say something. Like when they message and ask something in our group chat, I reply and no one responds. But the second that one of the others reply, they reply immediately. When I say something, I'm always left ignored. It felt as if I'm just....air. Like I'm just there but they don't see or hear me like a ghost.
I decided that once we graduate and start college next school year, I'm going to start....ghosting them, I guess. Just stop talking to them and messaging them. I mean, I'm barely noticeable already, I'm pretty sure they wouldn't notice when I finally leave their lives. They don't even notice their own behavior towards me. But maybe I am the problem as well. Although all I know is that I'm all fed up with everything and everyone. I don't even see them as my friends anymore, just some people that I hang around with.
(Anyway, sorry for the rant)
