Feels like I'm in constant battle and spiritual warfare these past few months, and it doesn't get any better this month...I couldn't focus on my writing, with my ideas, creativity, my mood, I couldn't really enjoy my day to day basis. I don't feel like myself, while forcing myself to keep writing and posting. My goal was to finish what I started. The past 2 weeks was the worse, having to had too many impulsives moments, highs and lots of lows, thoughts instantly spiraling, peace only last few hours...thankfully still can manage my sleep, almost no sleepless nights...helped a lot to keep the monster from wrecking havoc each and every cells that formed me, proudly say I still manage to hold on. But I know I need a pause, yet I can't. Time is ticking.
I might say my old enemy is trying to crawl back and entrapped me, which I won't let it do so, hence I need to push forward... harder...
I'm not losing, I've seen how it tricked me and got me stucked for years. Shouldn't fall for the same trick, though I might say, it's improving, it knows I'm a little smarter now, so it came with slight improvement.
Would post slow, would try my best to drop anything I could drop on KoFi, Patreon, here...my X's account. Make sure to follow.
Meanwhile, putting my armor, sharpened my sword, tightened my cothurnus, be right back, I'm in the middle of a war.