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@twice_illit_enhypen TT real. Maybe you could explain to me what you have in mind, and as you explain, things might come to you? Happened to me recently! And maybe I’ll try to come up with something after I read what you have in mind :)

ok I uploaded half of the diary entry!

@twice_illit_enhypen Take your time :)

 I will! (Eventually )

true!

@twice_illit_enhypen Woah, thanks for sending! A really interesting read. I didn’t even think that distance would make such an impact but it does make sense in a way when you see what international fans send protest trucks for compared to say, Chinese or Korean fans T-T 
            I think the difference in reaction toward Hee’s departure might highlight the difference in how they view idols too because once he left, it wasn’t really a member out to some fans, but just another lost product (didn’t they say international fans were embarrassing them lol, and they also didn’t send any protest trunks when it seemed like a more plausible reason than hairstyle grievances or dancing with girls) while international fans were crashing out cause aside from product, they’re thinking about other things and trying to make sense of the situation and seeing unfair treatment etc (but that could be the language barrier speaking). But that’s just a thought that I can’t word better right now T-T

@everyuthing (Just re-sent this with minor changes lol). 
            
            l've yapped so much about this honestly, and I do not want to annoy you with it. I've cooled down considerably but each time I see something new about the whole situation, I get mad again. I know we're never gonna get a clear explanation though.
            Someone said it would be crazy to think that in the future, ppl would think of Hee like how ppl think of Woojin (you surely know him - Stray Kids).
            
            My health is fine, and my studies are? Idk.
            When the grades are in, I'll know haha. Yes, math will NEVER not piss me off. If only I put in as much effort of searching up Heeseung stuff as my studies, I'd probably be a genius.
            Take your time! I am, and I hope you are, too <3 And if you're busy, then focus on that! :)
            I'm here whenever! I have Pinterest if you have that.
            
            AW I LOVE YOU MY SECOND LITTLE SISTER
            <333 love you love you love you!
            What?! Congrats on graduating sophomore year. I hope you have a better, more successful school year next year, with good health and lots of happiness, and everything goes your way! Ooh, what nails did you do?! bet you look so pretty! It's funny cause my actual summer break is gonna be some time in May smh.
            
            AWWW YOU TOO! I'm so glad I can catch up with you! HAHA, whv would I not read until the end T-T you’re the cutest huhu. 
            
            Dude, this took me… a long time. Idk why I take so long to write my replies now.

@everyuthing 
            OMG YAY! 12-13 hours is what you deserve, especially after all that work. 12 chapters or something in a night? Crazy. 
            
            Sending you 10 tubs of ice cream T-T and it’s not even summer for me but it’s getting way too hot. And I have to walk outside too huhu. 
            
            Haha, I did miss these long messages! Haven’t had a long proper yap session in a long time (especially with you)! 
            
            Ohh, that’s interesting. My most important year was 11th grade smh and 12th was letting senoritis take a hit. In 12th, I was trying to redeem myself lol. So you see your tutors or teachers from coaching institutes twice? Wait, what’s the point haha? Ohh, yeah, I get that. Will you guys at least see each other at some point of the day? 
            
            Okayyyy, advanced icon, no wonder you’re so busy T-T. 
            
            
            
            
            Oh okay, yay! Lowkey me with my friends from my old school haha. Nooo, it’s fine! Your life is more interesting than mine, trust. HUH NOOOO, give this kid her 11 days nooo. Will you at least get out of school before them? 
            
            BRUH. SERIOUSLY. I was so shell shocked that I didn’t even study for my mock exam and flunked (okay, laugh at me all you want but one: it had math; two: I hadn’t figured anything out the night before; three: it was extra credit so it didn’t hurt my grade and I could bomb it; four: I’m dumb and it had math and I was confused from the first day and never caught up). But man. I thought I was being pranked, AGAIN! This reminded me of the GFriend thing so much I genuinely got whiplash. God, HYBE, I despise you. Um, I think I’m just pissed. I didn’t even cry (I think that’s surprising). And I want answers, and Belift has been handling this mess in the worst way possible. They even updated Enha’s lore lol, instead of telling us about his solo or anything.  And Heeseung has a fan call later today? Well, it’s an Enha and Heeseung (seeing that makes me wanna hurl) event. I think; and I’m so worried for what’s gonna happen.

@everyuthing 
            Dia, you are my icon and I aspire to be like you cause I’m trash at both and they both make good money (of course, this isn’t the main part of the job but financial stability). Aw :( are you happy with it at least? What’s AI and research regarding that? Like the AI that helps track tumors? Wait, so you’re gonna end up with some type of engineering degree (sorry - my brain isn’t working right now)?
            
            GIRL, your break isn’t even a break. Studying all the time is crazy. I hope you’re okay though. I know how tough figuring out the future is (and you’re so young, too). I’m still figuring it out and I’m old smh. I’m sure that things will fall into place. You can do it! And I hope that at the end of it, you’ll look back and be happy with how things panned out. I’m not the best at comforting in this situation (maybe you don’t even need it) but I’ve been through what you’ve been through (maybe not as intensely) so yeah. Hope you’re taking care of yourself and you’re not too stressed. On the bright side, at least you’re sleeping haha.

@MintFlavoredTeaCup Yess its prbly such a hard time for them:(

@Iluv_kpopcuz Fancalls the day after was so diabolical :( I feel so bad for them. I hope they’re having some fun in Australia at least :(

@MintFlavoredTeaCup  The fact enhypen still has such a packed schedule is so sad 

@twice_illit_enhypen Yeah…  I really wish they did give us one. 
            And did you see the fricking explanation they gave us? Because of their inhumane schedule they have no time to do any solo projects like you said. Lol, not surprised, but I’m surprised they would admit that and shoot themselves in the foot with vastly different statements, alluding to how if anyone wants solo, they’ve gotta leave. Crazy. 
            
            Which brings me back to what I said about their tours. I remember back then ppl would say the members wanted the concerts so we shouldn’t be too worried, but with Belift’s new statement, I’m not so sure if I can trust that sentiment anymore. 
            
            Anyways, stupid company.

@MintFlavoredTeaCup the abruptness was my only problem. like, at least give us a heads-up???

@twice_illit_enhypen Yeah, that’s 100% true, and I won’t compare him to other still in-group soloists because everyone is different. But I just think (this is probably me coping) that Belift could compromise. Who in the world sends their group on tour for three years consecutively? Give them the break that they've been postponing. They’re already working ILLIT non-stop. Of course, money wins but bro?
            Anyways, aside from that cause I forgot my original thoughts, that’s true. And if it really is Heeseung’s decision, I’m sure a lot of Engenes would be heartbroken but okay. But we’re floating around with nothing to grasp because everything they’ve published and said contradicts with what is happening in real time, and the way they’ve said stuff makes ppl speculate there’s something deeper. 
            
            I usually don’t make that many speculations and stand by them before everything comes out, but gosh, Belift is SO messy TT. I genuinely doubt they ever planned this out. 
            At the end of the day, we’ll probably never know (I hope this isn’t the case), but like I’ve said over and over again, Belift is bs and they are known to treat ENHA horribly. I wouldn’t put it past them to kick Heeseung out, an this for a lot of Engenes was the straw that broke the camel’s back. 
            
            Sorry for the long rant TT I do agree with you but I’m a speculator, parasocial or not  :( 
            
            I really hope he’s okay right now, though :( if it really was his choice, I need Belift to clear everything up.

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@HokaRoha_Zono Thank you for telling me T-T facecarded together too much, oh my gosh AHHHHH

@HokaRoha_Zono WHAT THE HECK WHAT THE HECK THANK YOU T-T
             I WINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN HUHUHUHUHUHU

@Reading272013 CRYING LOLLLL T-T thank you for thinking of me hahhahahhahahaha I wonder if I’ll ever shut up about it.

@MintFlavoredTeaCup  im backkk <33 about to read the newest ILLITNEXTDOOR chap!! +When I first heard about the Woonhak X Wonhee stage I immediately thought of uuu T . T

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@twice_illit_enhypen Hoping that ENHA and ILLIT pull up with longer songs in the future, but it’s been years LOLOL.

@MintFlavoredTeaCup frrrrrrr