first off; second of all

I have this stuck in my head:
          
          Locked up in your room like a hoarder, 
          I can tell what your drinking your eyes are never open
          On the line, you said someone will die
          Wishing that the pills you take will make you cry
          Sometimes I watch you through the window just to see your okay..
          
          

Wearing a fucking bra hurts 

I wanna fucking hug the space core, he's so wild and can't stay still and just loves space I wanna hug him

Now I'm spraying perfume on open wounds, it fucking burns, I have to clench something to handle the overwhelming burning feeling, it doesn't leave and scars on me, guess it's my new SH method now

*sends unconditional love your way* i feel like you need this for some reason :))) love ya(as a friend) and always will :)))

In glad i met you as a friend :)

We're no strangers to love
          You know the rules and so do I (do I)
          A full commitment's what I'm thinking of
          You wouldn't get this from any other guy
          
          I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling
          Gotta make you understand
          
          Never gonna give you up
          Never gonna let you down
          Never gonna run around and desert you
          Never gonna make you cry
          Never gonna say goodbye
          Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
          
          We've known each other for so long
          Your heart's been aching, but you're too shy to say it (say it)
          Inside, we both know what's been going on (going on)
          We know the game and we're gonna play it
          
          And if you ask me how I'm feeling
          Don't tell me you're too blind to see
          
          Never gonna give you up
          Never gonna let you down
          Never gonna run around and desert you
          Never gonna make you cry
          Never gonna say goodbye
          Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
          
          Never gonna give you up
          Never gonna let you down
          Never gonna run around and desert you
          Never gonna make you cry
          Never gonna say goodbye
          Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
          
          We've known each other for so long
          Your heart's been aching, but you're too shy to say it (to say it)
          Inside, we both know what's been going on (going on)
          We know the game and we're gonna play it
          
          I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling
          Gotta make you understand
          
          Never gonna give you up
          Never gonna let you down
          Never gonna run around and desert you
          Never gonna make you cry
          Never gonna say goodbye
          Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
          
          Never gonna give you up
          Never gonna let you down
          Never gonna run around and desert you
          Never gonna make you cry
          Never gonna say goodbye
          Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
          
          Never gonna give you up
          Never gonna let you down
          Never gonna run around and desert you
          Never gonna make you cry
          Never gonna say goodbye
          Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
          
          
          
          I miss rick rolling people

Opinion on lost silver in fanfictions::::
          
          I don't wanna ruin y'alls fun with writing lost silver in fanfictions, but honestly, I don't think he would be such a wimp. Like,  isn't he meant to be creepy?? And not be like "uh oh OH NO, HE'S GONNA KILL ME WITH A KNIFE IF I DARE TO SAY SOMETHING!!!!" Like, Why is it that lost silver is the wimp when others have went through the same thing as him yet are seen absolute badass's capable of murdering somebody even when hurt? Like lost silver can do the same thing, I do see him as a depressed human being, but that ion mean he gotta be a wimp that is scared of everything

I hate those kind of parents who say "you should take a break from your phone" "It's that phone" "you'll be ok" like, I'm sitting here, dealing with a headache, and my mom goes "TaKE a BReAK frOM ThAT PhONe" 
          
          I literally remember feeling dizzy one time and I told my mom Abt it and all she has to say is "you should eat more salt" I ate salty foodsand nothing changed lol.

I really want to write and express my trauma, but I don't know how to describe them, I don't know how to put my trauma into words.