Am i the only one who genuenly feels like they can be never loved?
I've never had a real kiss, holding hands or even really romantically talk to a boy.
No boy has ever really shown interest to me.
The only time they did, was to get with my "friends" (i dont have friends)
I just feel like im the odd one out.
And if i'm with my friends (trio)
I feel like they're missing someone else, but im not the missing puzzle piece.
Im just like..here.
I'm not pretty, skinny or pale.
I'm black plussize and too tall.
All i do is starve myself, daydream and do my homework.
I feel like im no value.
Im just here.
Wrong place, wrong moment.
All the girls in my class are skinny or pretty or even both.
I can't even achieve one of these things.
I never really go out.
Just for groceries or for school.
I don't have any one else but myself and my hobbies.
I have been stuck on social media so badly to the point that i need validation badly.
I crave male validation so badly, that i get attached to any male that i see.
But when i do have a crush, i never do something about it because i know that im not desired.
No one wants me.
I don't even know what to do.
I dont wanna do sh or kms.
I'm just here.
Im just waiting until my time runs out naturally.