Was a bit off my zone. Begin watching BiggBoss19 and I watched till ep 34 but not feeling like continuing ofcourse I know Gk will win, he has that grace, that strength and intelligence to win it with dignity & beauty but following this journey by binge watching is making me far away from my MaAn, my comfort zone which i don't want. Missing them like anything and it hurts very badly, very terribly. Still crying while penning this but I will be fine soon. Will watch old episodes from where I left ( 368 ) and then will upload Scenes in MaAn journey group on telegram. Hopefully that will make me feel that I'm in my MaAn bubble again, back to my home again !!!! And Once i will completely feel come back to my home - will begin writing again.