MirroredPolarbear

I'll try to complete my stories on there

MirroredPolarbear

As you can tell, I have gone on a haitus, don't know when I'll be back, but the thing is. Is I've lost interest in writing on wattpad. Though I may repost my work on AO3, Don't know yet, and will continue from there if my writing skills get better. And yes you can still request on here. I will be copy and pasting my oneshots and stories so you can read them here. Another thing is that I'm moving soon, so I don't have enough time to write stuff, I don't have any ideas anyway. But I have lost interest in alot of things I have written. My main focus is on learning to create an actual game and my studies. Though I will still be active. (Will continue in replies)

MirroredPolarbear

Plus my mental health/depression has taken a serious toll on my physical health too. If you wanna know why, I go days without eating sometimes, maybe even two days or more. On Tuesday while I was finished getting groceries with my parents, I passed out from lack of sleep and due to starvation. I now get reminded to eat by family. I'm not afraid to share as it could help others being encouraged to take care of themselves. Then this is where my fear of being imperfect comes in, I have always been told to work out (by my dad) and go on a diet (by my old schoolmates) and get good grades (by my parents, dad mostly). If you struggle with any of these, it's okay, it'll get better I promise. My lack of motivation is getting worse, my overthinking has been more active lately. Because of this, I think I should take a break from everything and work on my self. Again if you struggle with any of this, you can always dm me on here or anywhere else and if you wanna dm me on discord just dm me on here and I'll tell you my tag. Nobody should have to go through what I go through daily, I wanna help others and myself over come these types of struggles. I'm already in therapy trying to recover, but unfortunately over the days I have thought of ODing. I'm getting tired typing all of this. I'm sorry, and thank you for understanding. I thought I should just let this out
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MirroredPolarbear

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I hate my new haircut, it looks okay but it doesn't look good on my face shape. I looking like fucking joyce from stranger things, don't get me wrong, she's pretty but I don't wanna look like her and then if you cut the long parts it looks like fucking Johnathan or dora, and then if you cut the medium length part I'll look like will. I'm crying. still love it tho, I just gotta style it since when I went, I looked bummy.

MirroredPolarbear

@frog_with_a_knife I know but still.  and thank you
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tin_foil_hat235

@MirroredPolarbear it'll be okay! When  your hair regrows you'll get a cooler haircut!
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MirroredPolarbear

Whenever I look at Karma Akabane oneshots for shits and giggles I always see at least ONE oneshot that contains sexual actions or mild sexual tension... like dawg.. aren't they like 14 or something?? Now if it's where they're like in the future or something it's fine since he's like idk in his twenties or something. and I understand it takes place in japans and if I am correct the age of consent is 13 or 14 but still bro that's stll weird cause like you most likely live in America where the age of consent is like 16-18, and you're most likely a straight Cis 13 year old white girl who fetishizes mlm and a fujoshi. and I'm talking about ones that were made in 2020 or something so not too long ago that I've seen. anyways that concludes my rant for today. anyway live laugh love guys. keep calm and slay. listen to my alcoholic friends bcause it's a good song

MirroredPolarbear

japan* not japans
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MirroredPolarbear

Sometimes, when Im watching blue exorcist the 2848th time or something, I remember that Rinyuki (A ship between rin and his brother yukio/Yukiotoko) exists and hate people who ship it(Not actually I just don't like the fact they ship it),. they're literally brothers...