Ishi Mizu

30th bday coming up ! If any wanna send blessings my way cause I'm tap out of food and drinks for med taking. And be nice get something I like for me. $Cutsieboo on cashapp! If not. Send happy bdays to me on discord. ishi.mizu on nov 3rd. Hehe. Tysm for reading. 

I miss and hate u so much Molly.. some ilys and oh we besties.. all was lies and a joke to me for years.. sometimes I wonder why I met u and then 1st time u left.. why did I forgive u.. I know. I loved u a lot. I was a damn stupid fool.. ik I'm diff ik I'm odd one out.. but just why again.. least I deserve a explanation... or not.. hate my ptsd . ..psych gonna know ig cyz I'm in tears seeing past stuff .. 
          Bye fir nw

Hi.. so.. I tried moving on of having Ishi with someone else.. but nothing happened. I didn't apparently click with the rper.. tried friending em but they were whatever toxic ig.. I k.o her in the community I tried.. in a story.. tho I warned EVERYone in there. In general any issues or I get tremendously hurt and my ishi oc. I'm done. Well.. crap happened. So yah.. 
          I don't wanna lose Ishi.. shes my first oc.. 
          She given me so many fun happy memories in my past.. 
          Had me met someone I thought was everything to me.. but I was a fool to think I was a part in her amazing life.. 
          I have a bestie irl. But she's idk how old .. her son whos like a bro to me is 30s so.. but I love her bunches regardless of age.. 
          I just.. wish to have a few best friends my age too.. 
          Or close to it.. 
          Tho anyone close to it. Don't stick around much..
          Being autistic no joke and other stuff I have.. I know I'm different and so on.. I'm sorry.. 
          I wish everyday wasn't hard for me.. 
          But it is..
          
          If saw my fbook. Gotta be friends with me there to see here there my feels posts.. 
          I'm Ren Nevermore. With hei hei from moana picture on profile. 
          
          Listen.. I moved on I guess. Since 2022? Idk. Last time I tried getting hold of someone.. 
          I do get teary or smile here there if remembered her.. she left a huge impact on me.. 
          
          Tho I'm glad she's doing amazing far I saw from a Google search. Eh of looking her personal social medias. 
          Just Google and first thing. Safest thing. Shes doing tremendously good of a epic job she has. So that makes me proud and relaxed. 
          
          I know I can be relieved she's ok. Ya know.
          
          My song to her always. Be. I got you by Leona Lewis. Even if never feel same to me.. 
          
          I got you Molly. Always. And to everyone that's gone in my life. NOT spe.rm and egg donor tho... I do hate em  sigh. 
          
          Midnight.. I need to stop rambling without my grammar keyboard.. 
          
          Sorry everyone. 
          
          Gnite.. 

Can you review my ongoing novel climb on love and give your honest review 

Get out of my head!!!  

Maybe I do lil miss em.. but its life moving on lol 

Fck it all.. :( 

Merry Christmas..... #hatesbeingalone 

If I disappear.. no one will care or notice.. 
          I'm so tired of life.. 
          So tired..

This is how her story goes.. 
          A bad fairytale ending.. 
          A love that was never there.. 
          She has to walk away.. 
          Has to stop everything..
          No one will notice she's gone.. 
          Lost in the dark...
          Crying a lot.. 
          This is how her story goes.. 
          
          -Me
          Hey everyone.. -smiles sad- posting here.. to say. I'm hiding for good from a friend and family... I dnt deserve them.. they won't notice me gone which I dnt blame em. But I'm just tired of life.. Will work on story here there.. 
          Thanks for reading em.. 
          Bye..