LittleWorldOfMyChaos

Fuck it.. I am starting a new book and all of my books shall be connected in some way, because I just spent creating three whole worlds in exactly six months... 
          
          Yeah ... Screw it all

I have been away for a really long time
          Has it been a year?
          Who knows, but maybe I should raise from the dead and actually get back to writing
          
          Who knows, who knows
          
          No, like really, what should I continue?
          
          I wanna continue on the latest book of mine, but that thing has so much world building and lore that with my new phone do not have...
          
          
          This will be interesting

Sorry for I have not been active...
          
          I have been trying to get my life together... These past four months I was surrounded by six wonderful people, which I love them for...
          
          I finally experienced what it was like to be happy for at least week straight, I started looking forward to things, I started to put my trust to people.. finally.....
          
          This week finally felt happy... Just happy.. positive....
          
          But today it just... Went all wrong...
          
          My classmate died today and I really just cannot take it...
          
          Don't get me wrong I experienced three other deaths before, but now....
          
          I guess I am just done... 
          
          I felt like I don't deserve to be even slightly happy, I told myself: why her? I don't even have a future.. I don't even know what I want with my life...
          
          There are a lot of things I want to say but I am scared to do that...
          
          I feel kind of pathetic
          My friend told me that I deserve to be happy and that I still have her...
          
          She has no idea, how much it meant to me... So I am thankful for her a lot
          
          I swear that one day I will be okey, just... A little longer
          
          Thanks for reading this vent I really appreciate it...
          
          If u have any idea how can I accept this whole thing, please do write it... It will help not only me, but also anyone that is going through similar thing and needs help 
          
          Once thanks again....
          
          This chaotic child is off

I want to write..... But I think this will end up w/ another writer block....

I don't know, if I want to continue writing in slovak.... I have my reasons... 
          But I've decided, that I'll post in english. Hope nobody minds that, lol...
          
          I am working on something right now, hope it will be worth wait...
          
          Owo

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