Hey Zoey,
You probably won't see this for a while, but I'm sorry.
I love you a lot, and for a while, I was okay, but it's gone downhill again.
I'm trying to stay alive, 'cause I don't wanna leave now, but I can't promise anything.
If this is goodbye, I'm sorry about everything. Sorry that I forced you into being my friend, sorry that I scared you as much as I did, sorry that you had to deal with me, sorry I never kept up with our friendship, sorry I don't ever check in on you, sorry that I left you, sorry I haven't been there, sorry that you had to deal with my bs, sorry for being annoying, sorry for not telling you how proud of you I am as much as I should, I'm sorry for everything.
I love you, so so so much.
I hope this isn't the end, but I'm not sure.
I'll make the sky pretty if it is.
Love you