Okay, First of all. I don’t know what to write, I don’t know how to write a content, and I don’t know a lot about writing in a technical world. I just want to write something and this leads me here. Again. There are a lot of things in my mind that words seemed lost. I just want to have a future where in I can do what ever I want, a future where everyone can enjoy the stories I tell without relying too much on technicality. Yes, like a free writing.
I am not good at grammar, and I am not confident with the choice of words that I am using in these set of paragraphs. All I know is I have to write to convey what I feel and express the ideas in mind.
It has been a decade, where I last felt that writing is my passion. A girl in her teenage years wanting to make stories like those of what she read on a book and watched on her television. Making a non-existent world coming out physically by writing things she wants to share, a version of her reality.
I am lost. Certain that starting a new journey towards this field will cause me not only time and effort but money. But I want to be able to do something, I want to be great.
This little girl inside me shouts her eagerness to continue what she have started and never done, its just getting louder each days that I can’t seem to concentrate. I had conditioned myself to stick with the field I knew best (architecture), though, the inner me already knows that this isn’t going to work because a heap of external factors has to be considered in this generation.
In the end, all I can think about is how can I make a happy living.
Maybe I can start with nothing. Maybe I can just write randomly. Maybe this will help me get back on track if I just continue to write absolutely just about anything.
I am afraid and wanting to calm down, so this is all I can do.
(Updated 05.16.2022)
