Hello everyone,
It had been long time since I interacted with you all or had updated a chapter in my current book. Life had been tough quite lately and it feels like I'm such a disappointment for my parent's who do a lot for me. And the draw back in this situation was I couldn't even blame it on luck because I know that I didn't prepared for it seriously. I was reckless in past and now I'm getting result of my recklessness. I don't have any right to be sad because I am at the fault and I'm very well aware of it. Everything is ruined now. No not now, my life get out of track once I entered class 9th. Please don't assume that I'm on the bad track of life where I would do literally bad things. I'm still very far from all that thing and wish to be in the future too. All I'm talking about is my academic and carrier performance right now. All I could see infront of me is darkness where I'm lost. I'm afraid what if I couldn't achieve the things I want in my life or what If I fail in my life. I'm afraid, so much afraid to lose myself in this darkness and I don't even have anyone to talk about these things. My parents are okay but they wouldn't understand what I'm going through right now. No they don't force me to do what I don't want to Infact they are supportive. They told me to take whatever path I want in my life and continue as long as it is legal and you could earn. But the problem is my ownself, I don't actully know what exactly I want in my life and I'm afraid to switch things. My mind is so messed up right now that I don't even know what I wrote above but please ignore me. I just wanted to rant about it. And you all could read as another boring story of stranger and pass. Lucky are those people who know what they want to do in their life and actually achieve it. Unlike me who is confused to even think and do something right