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TW : TALK OF NOT DRINKING WATER, EATING DISORDERS, PERIODS, TALK OF PERIOD BLOOD, ofc swears
Ok, my period this time is kind of heavy. But last time it was very light. So my dumb ass brain thinks I didn't drink a lot of water the month before last. So that's why it was so light. So my dumbass mind thinks if I drink a lot of water, it will make more blood. Then it will be lighter next time. And I want that, so it's thinking 'don't have as much water as last month, where you had it lighter.' SO, I'M THINKING LIKE A FUCKING EATING DISORDER AND HARDLY DRINKING WATER. BUT IF I DRINK WATER, I FEEL GUILTY FOR DOING SO BECAUSE I WANT A LIGHTER PERIOD. I AM STARTING TO FEEL DISGUSTED BY DRINKING FUCKING WATER.
Thanks for listening to me vent, if you are going through the same/similar thing. It will get better, I promise. (Damn, wish I could take my own advice)
Love, Willow<3