I remember waking up in the morning and seeing messages from my best friend. I opened it and was stunned. Couldn't believe the screenshot which said One direction member Liam Payne died. I never ever even imagined that this day would come. I immediately went on twitter and Instagram and saw all the news articles. A strange desperation bubbled in my chest. I couldn't accept the fact that we'll never see him again, we'll never hear him again, he'll never come live again. It felt so unreal at first but alas it wasnt. It is true. Payno is no more. I just cannot. I have cried so much. It just hurts. All I could remember was the sweet smile of the sweet boy. We all have grown up with him. And I just cannot. I dont have any words. He has given me so much strength and courage and now I just feel desolated. My hero, Liam, sleep well.