@Mitsurislilcumdrop and whenever I bring things like this up to my cousin she just ignores it and/or gets mad that 'I'm upset she's just trying to spend time with her friend' and since those two are really my only friends I try not to make them mad because I'm scared that if they stop hanging out with me I'll be lonely and I don't like the feeling of being lonely without friends,and since I'm basically always bottling up my sadness and not really telling people about it,it just kinda effected me worse