Jimin's_Right_Buttcheek

hiii i feel like u're a soft and kind person, can we be friends? <33 AND JIKOOK FTW 

@ VesperAverySage  that's so kind! Thank you very much ^^

Okay, so the last two 'messages' on here, didn't seem so nice so:
          

p.s, she does know what she’s writing about and no that is not “rape” it’s literally a backstory of jungkook. and last time i checked there are books made from 10 year olds on here. learn before you decide to go off on a FANFIC. 

look, you went all off on my friends book. nobody asked you to read it so if you wanna talk about it then i’d advise you go read another book. that is a jikook story and you have no right to be saying those things to her. you should have read the title and description first. stop being so pressed and never go back to one of her books. 

Je t’aime bien (grâce à un commentaire que tu a mis dans une ff) 

@ VesperAverySage  hi stranger ^^, what brought you here? 

Reading smut and listening to some cutsy twice at the same time is confusing. Like I'm reading things like "oh my god fuck me already" and singing ME LIKEY, ME LIKEY LIKEY LIKEY 

It's 5am and I havent' slept all night. I am now crying over BTS Lost because it reminds me of my old self, my old city, my old friends. I listened to it walking to school and I was such a different person back then...
          I'm can't stop crying.
          I've juts been diagnistocated severly depressed and I will have a meeting with a psychiatrist next week and I am so scared. I saw a post on Instagram earlier saying "you have the right to refuse being weighed" but no I can't. I don't want to be weighed. I am so scared. I am scared of myself at that point, because I deny it and I tell myself that I'm over it and that everything is okay but I know that deep down I have those suicidal thoughts eating me. I think about killing myself every fucking night. But I won't do it right? I have a little sister. I have a girlfriend.
          I know they love me, it's a fact. But... Do they love me? My brain keeps telling me nobody fucking cares, nobody loves you, you are a dissapintement, you are not even that sick you don't deserve help. You're fat, not skinny enough, eat less, eat fucking less you cow. And I can't fucking take it anymore. I can't open up to people I love, I don't want to hurt them, so I avoid them and dissapoint them, and the only way I can express this is through wattpad, because I don't know anyone here. I know my girlfriend will probably see this, but maybe she won't. I have a friend that I miss dearly that will probably read this, but she won't. I hope she is well... I love her, and I hope she can recover better than me. 

I feel so confused about my feelings. I want to cry, I thought all in my head was clear, I had a little bit of control over myself but I don't have any. It is so frustrating, I want to understand myself but I am not able to. I've always tried to get some control in all the ways possible, right now I just feel like a failure.
          
          I need to clear my head, but I can't if I keep overthinking everything that happens in my life, right now I try to distract myself... It's not working well and I know I'm not gonna sleep tonight