CrazyForMyself

Pattern - Aa song written by me
          
          You wanna do what you like
          But that doesn't include what I like
          If I distance myself from you
          Will that help anywhere?
          The day with the bright sun
          Was dreamed to be all fun
          Not to blame you, I'm sorry
          But I have the permission to be happy without you
          
          I don't want to be called
          I never said that
          I don't want to be forced
          Yes, I admit and that's fair enough
          I wear the mask of a good person
          And try to be fake
          I'll admit if I have to hide the ugly me
          I have done enough, now I don't have the energy
          Doesn't that apply to you too?
          
          If I am wronged, I shall speak
          If you are wronged, you shall shout
          I won't help you understand yourself
          I don't want my ears damaged again
          A peaceful day with no chaos and you
          What am I saying? Is that a dream come true?
          
          You're ugly, just like me
          No one's to be blamed 
          We are born with flaws
          I don't want to be pointed for those
          I repented and don't need to give an explanation
          Be it between myself and me
          Or yourself and you.
          
          I don't want to be called
          I never said that
          I don't want to be forced
          Yes, I admit and that's fair enough
          I wear the mask of a good person
          And try to be fake
          I'll admit if I have to hide the ugly me
          I have done enough, now I don't have the guts
          Doesn't that apply to you too?
          
          If I am wronged, I shall speak
          If you are wronged, you shall shout
          I won't help you understand yourself
          I don't want my ears damaged again
          A peaceful day with no chaos and you
          What am I saying? Is that a dream come true?
          
          No one listens to you 
          And you remain the lonely person
          You're no dessert to be left alone
          And no bird to fly alone
          The view we hold in front
          Shall be changed 
          For a better result
          
          No one listens to me
          And here's the lonely individual.

Just updated( ╹▽╹ )
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/274704084

I'm crying in fear
          But nobody even care
          I'm shaking in horror 
          But everybody just says "ignore her"
          
          I'm totally in dispair 
          Busy sitting shredding tear
          And noone sill even notice
          Cuz I'm not a multimillionaire 
          
          Will someone even care
          If I suddenly disappear
          We will make it fair
          By hiding somewhere not near
          
          We are teen
          But we still need shoulder to lean
          Being treated like toddlers 
          Still expected to act like a Nineteen 
          
          
          ✎ Writing of
                     Hapuesa 

My songs and Poems❤️❤️❤️
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/274704084

@crystaldaisy81 Hey! I am great. How about you?(◕ᴗ◕✿)

I wanna get those cute bangs but I would hate to grow my bangs all over again. ಥ_ಥ

Should I start my book of poems and songs written by me? Because I don't feel like writing stories now.❤️

Mm..Hey so I updated couple of Chapters on the jjk ff.. Check it out whenever u have time ~

I wrote a song today instead of a poem. Y'all can give it a read.
          
          [Promise]
          
          I wouldn't believe to be with you
          I would never ever
          Who knows what the end is holding for me?
          I'll be flying away with my own wings
          I wouldn't need to look up.
          I will try to be with myself
          
          When you came in front of me
          When I looked into your eyes
          The spark in it filled my whole word 
          Like a magic spell casted
          You make me forget myself
          You hold me when I want to run
          Tell me what to do
          Get hypnotized or what
          
          You came and sat beside me
          On the empty seat
          You wiped my tears 
          Now I understood you're lit
          A promise made by us long time ago
          I repeat, promise me not to break this friendship.
          
          I wake up and feel the coldness around me 
          I remember you as a nightmare
          Well, guess I am never free
          You never come to lend me your wings to help me fly.
          I sit back and hope but forget that
          This hope has already died.
          
          The sunlight fall upon us as we dance
          To fly higher, this was another chance
          Your smile gave me warmth 
          Didn't know that smile was always bitter.
          Your memories always stayed with me
          But you took yourself from me
          It's a dream I wouldn't wanna dream ever
          It's a bloody nightmare.
          
          Now there's no one to fill the empty seat beside me
          Don't have tears but a smile wiped away.
          A promise made by us long time ago
          I won't repeat, but you broke my promise.
          
          I wouldn't believe to be with you
          I would never ever
          Who knows what the end is holding for me?
          You never come to lend me your wings to help me fly.
          I sit back and hope but forget that
          This hope has already died.
          
          But you just broke my promise!
          I won't break my promise to leave you ever alone
          I repeat, promise me to not ever leave me alone!
          

I opened my YouTube Channel. https://youtube.com/shorts/AAzKIed1Xho?feature=share
          Lol❤️