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you're so cool sometimes I wanna understand everything you did and do?
          wow that was lyrical-

Hi

Rereading my own works and.... cringe. 

I wuv all your stories and how deeply you feel <3 
          I wanna give you big big bear hugs ( if you don't like affection I can work for you for free ) because you're so lovely uwus and since you are you and you are so extraordinary.
          The person who is beautiful from inside out :3 like genuinely.  
          I don't know if my words through texts were sincere enough but your work ( all works ) make me hairs stand. On the back of my neck and back of my arms , my spinal column it's it's so good- 
          I don't think these words are enough to convey how good of a person and a author you are , I hope you have been appreciated . it's never too late. I appreciate you , finding you in life is a good thing . it' Can be said as the best thing 
          thank you. thank you for just existing. 
          
          

It's truly an honor to have covid the same time as Min YoonGi.

Today is a bad day. Today is the day that I failed once again, relapsed once again. Today is the day that I rant here because I avoid everywhere else because this place seems more like a void than anything, and where I can say things like this and nothing comes of it.
          
          I really want to finish my works. I want be able to make something happy but its clear that the only energy I've ever held in me is destructive and bad. I'm really struggking with whether to take everything down and forget I ever created, or pretended to create, anything good or just sign off forever like I did everywhere else and just pretend I don't exist. 
          
          I used to use fanfiction as a type of escape. A fantasy world of people that liked what I did, but I can't read it anymore. Not without being reminded of how much these people would hate me and everything I've become. There isn't escape anymore because everything just is. It just is and I guess that sucks.
          
          I don't know why I'm ranting if I'm just hurting or tired or high I don't know anything anymore. I thought that beautiful images would help manifest my own great future of love and happiness but instead I'm just actively making sure that I'm alone and hated. 
          
          I just hate this entire page.

Army saying shit like "too bad JiMin doesn't look like he did in 2014 because that was HOT" make me high key pissed lmao bc of the whole entire group having various EDs and eating abnormalites at that time... like no you don't want that JiMin, you want happy healthy SAFE JIMIN STFU. 

It's June 1st! HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!

People get so upset that all my stories have "bad endings" or that they are "too angsty" and yell at me about it.... if you don't like the story, just don't read it. Its that simple.

I've been unable to keep down any food for about a month straight now, actually probably most of this year I can probably count how many times I've been able to eat, and I would like to say that it is absolutely unfair my body hasn't given up on day 30 like we were told in science class.