Moni_Bxby
I am lacking audience guys! ;-; Help me outttttt plez
Moni_Bxby
shiithuja
Hey mom!
Moni_Bxby
@EXPENSIVENUN2020 Indeed I did thank you. It's just my nickname tbh with "bxby" but thank you!
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im_maze
Please follow back dear! ♥️(*･ω･ﾉﾉﾞ☆ﾟﾟ
ThatGayArtist4
Hi I'm a new follower and your books are awesome keep it up!!!
333rror
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namjinhearts
Hey there... There's people who loves you, ykonw. I hope you know that ♡
Moni_Bxby
You know when you feel this way where your body is deciding to give up you, your mind is deciding to give up on you, your everything is just slowly trying to give up you. And the thing is you know nothing abt how to make yourself feel normal or feel better again.. I feel that way right now, and honestly my conscience doesn't have control anymore and I don't have the energy, power, strength or effort to do anything abt it. I'm getter weaker and my emotions are taking control.
I know how dramatic and stupid everything sounds, come on.. This is Wattpad but it's the truth. Everything I used to have control over is gone. I'm out of control. My mind is doing things without warning. My eyes are releasing a river without warning.. No human should ever have to feel like way. And I don't wanna feel this way but if I can't control it, no one can..
Moni_Bxby
@KatLuverkitten I eventually read this so many times as I cry.. I am grateful for everything. And you're right, I don't want to do.. I have no intentions of doing so. I just want whatever is happening to stop. I already have the best.. I dont deserve anything more. I'm a normal human after all. You're the most amazing person I've known and I dont know anyone else who deserves more than you.. No one! ❤
CannotBeMoreBothered
@PoTaeTo_Chipz I know you've felt lonely about everything in general and about you-know-what but I honestly don't know what to say. This is a never ending trap and all I have left to say is to talk to true friends, like me! (Hopefully)
Moni_Bxby
2010-2019 : finished
2020-2029 : coming soon
(How does that actually make you feel..? You've made it through to the next decade! I remember in 2012 when everyone thought it was the end of the world and we were all done for, but hey.. Look where we are now. 2020 - Let's go!!! Just know.. Whoever you, where ever you are, no matter how hard things get for you.. Don't push yourself to give up instantly just bc you think it's impossible to continue. You will feel that way sometimes.. Everyone does. But what I've been wanting to get into my own head is not to think low of myself bc there are times I would want to give up on myself bc I can't do it.. But what I should learn from that is, "It's not impossible, it's just not my strong point. There's other things that are especially my strong point bc it's me".. something someone really special to me told me today. And I'm especially grateful for her telling me this. She's known me for so long and I always know she's there for me to talk to if no one is. 2020 will be thrilling.. Don't be scared enough to not see it now. :) )
Moni_Bxby
@KatLuverkitten ; - ; You know.. she has a hella lot of embarrassing stories abt me.. Evilness. Sadly.. she doesn't live close to me. I'm at her house right now so it's fine.
Moni_Bxby
@KatLuverkitten My aunty.. She's like my second mother. The mother I wish that was my mother. She was always there for me since I was young. Taking me to nursery bc my parents wouldn't, take me to her house when I had no food at home, alot of other things. I appreciate her and I think she's gonna be someone for my next chapter.
Moni_Bxby
@KatLuverkitten 2020 will be something.. We just wait for what life has planned for everyone. Can't promise the best though.. (Nope, the person is not @marichatlover1 , it's actually my dear aunty.. )