Guess what we learned today. Lazyness is not what you think it is. It's not a character flaw or something that is your fault. It's the fear of becoming overwealmed cuz of past experiances, the fear of not doing a good enogh job so why even try OR actuall exhaustion that just doesn't feel like exhaustion. So...Stop feeling bad. You're not lazy, you're unmotivated. And there is a reason for it that has to be solved with more then willpower.