Lizzie’s wife.

@monkeyolsen2
          Do you have somewhere that we can DM? I want to talk about Lily and see if she's doing good.

Hi, be aware this post is a Tw for dog cancer. 
          
          My dog. CoCo, is having a surgery to have her mammary tumor removed throughout surgery. It's a type of breast cancer in dogs, the best way I can explain it. She's getting it removed today and she's gunna be very low in activity's for weeks and maybe even months. I'm so fucking scared. I think.. she'll pull through the surgery, “most likely” she will but it still terrifies me. She's only 5/6 years old so she's likely to be okay. But the cancer can come back multiple times as dogs have plenty of breasts. Please wish me and Coco luck.
          
          My dog Mia also has cancer but it's a huge tumor (the size of a softball) on her side and I'm not sure she'll pull through. She's way older. She's my childhood dog and i've had her since I was young, she's around 10 or 11 years old and so it's very risky. But if we don't, she'll die soon. So either way it's 50/50. But we haven't scheduled her surgery yet, due to money complications. The vet is pricey man.
          
          Anyways. Thank you for taking your time to read this. :)… if you did.

My apologies for sliding into your Conversations board uninvited.
          I just wanted to grab your attention to my stories. There is an arranged marriage story, a teen romance, a young adult, and some mafia stories.
          Once again, I'm sorry for intruding.
           Have a nice day ahead!!!
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/239672415-mafia-miss-honey

Okay not being insensitive but like, Natasha and Yelena are so lucky. I know not having yk.. things to have a baby sucks and it was not consenting, but like. I’m in sm pain rn my body was shaking when I moved.. I wanna be them rn .

Can we talk about how Scarlett’s kids, how when they get married,  their wife’s and husband’s are gunna have the best mom in law, I’m so jelly bro, and for what?! 

I literally love you so much, you are every half to make my heart while. I don’t know what I’d do without you in my life, I’m such a hopeless romantic and I’ll continue pouring my heart out. I’m going to crying again because this type of love never felt so damn good. 

Sorry I haven’t updated in like… 4 months. 
          I’ve just really lost connection with my books and being a writer. I do still try some, but it’s hard. I shall not give up tho.

!speaks about my sex life! Trigger warning.. I think for some. I go like.. really in depth. 
          
          So, as I don’t like really expressing myself on something my family can read. This is my safe space. Enjoy another complaint about my life, I recently feel like I’ve developed HSDD aka, Hypoactive Sexual Desire Disorder. (is when you're not interested in sex (have no sex drive or a low sex drive), and it bothers you. It's one of the most common sexual problems that people have. This could be a lifelong concern, or it can happen over time) 
          
          And it’s not like I don’t like having sex, I mean I don’t know how to explain it. I am a virgin but the idea of it just. I don’t wanna be touched yk? 
          
          But I also feel like.. I shouldn’t describe myself as a person who doesn’t at ALL like sex because I do, and the thought of it is very hot (with my girlfriend ofc) but. I just, I don’t wanna be touched. 
          
          Maybe (probably) this is just a phase and I really hope it is, because I feel like if it gets worse and I end up not wanting to have sex at all, I’d disappoint her somehow? But I know I wouldn’t because she’s not that type of person. She’d respect it but I still feel that way. 
          
          I want sex, I do! (sometimes) but not that much. And I LOVE touch, so very much. (It’s my love language) But not sexually, one minute I’m all for it- the next “don’t touch me” 
          
          It’s confusing and I really don’t know what to do. I’m not sure if I don’t want it because I’ve never had it or because I just really don’t want it. 
          
          And I’m not sure if I do want it just so I don’t let her down or because I actually want it. 
          
          (Ps, we’re in a 4 month long distance relationship and we’ve never even met, she’s not forced(ing) me into anything, it’s just a thought In my mind! So don’t think anything of that, please) 
          
          But has anyone been thru this that could idk. Give me pointers to figuring it out… maybe getting over it..? 

My babies book is finished. god, that's like a
          chapter over in my life, completed. It's not
          only how we met but this book has brought
          so much comfort to me. Especially qoya. (the
          main character) And who knew. I'd actually
          fall in love with the writer who wrote her, who
          is qoya, just in a different font. The writer
          name Koya. My girlfriend of 4 months as of
          December 1st. I'm so incredibly proud of you
          baby, and what you've accomplished, you're
          so perfect and you continue to shock me
          everyday. I shall forever fall more and more in
          love with you. Mwah! (The book is called banana pancakes, give it a read. I promise you
          won't regret it! It's a Lizzie × reader, the reader has a daughter as well!)

Happy birthday natty<33