Hey guys. I was planning on updating today and I’m sorry that I haven’t updated in a while, But something happens today that has affected me mentally, Not gonna specify what happened or who was involved but Basically me and one or two of my friends were like signing up for something, you could say, And let’s say it’s an Art contest, And I was submitting a piece of art. I really like getting involved in things like this because it makes me like feel good and like I like it in general. But what happened was basically we could say that the administrator type of person is running the event. I don’t even know them that well barely know them at all, but, um, I have like really bad trust issues and I also need to be like reassured a lot thatI’m not worthless and like people care about me. And I don’t hate the person who did this no matter how much my current mindset is telling me I should, Because it wasn’t their fault. But I did get hurt by it. What they did was, (And remember this is her hypothetical fill in the blank situation because I don’t want to put anybody on the spot by mentioning names of like friends and stuff) So they told me that I could make the hypothetical piece of art, And I knew it wasn’t guaranteed that this would be chosen and make it through, But I also knew there was a pretty good chance it would. Person kind of went behind my back in a sentence and told somebody else That their peace that they were doing for the same thing would be needed, and they did that Before telling me that they had judge that I think wouldn’t make it through, Felt like being backstabbed in a sense and Again with my mental issues when something happens like that to me, it’s like I Just shut down, sort of. But I did go up to this person and Ask them about it and while the response they gave wasn’t rude definitely wasn’t as nice as it Could’ve been. it kind of feels like somebody saying Best them in second place, good but not good enough. God, I swear I’m crying. Sorry guys.