I'll make a post now because I can't write on my phone
(PT. 1 of a story I'll be writing.)
It's...painful. I watch as the people around me decay, my friends losing themselves along with me... It shouldn't have gone this way. They should've been happy and enjoying this life...repeat, repeat, repeat. Go back. Reset. Make them happy, and love themselves...give me their pain. I want them to feel okay...at least I think, well some of them...some I just can't care for anymore...it feels all dull. I say things that hurt them and feel nothing! I sit with my cousin after breaking down and we sit in silence. Then she walks off. I feel...sad? No, I'm dissatisfied with myself. Why does everything hurts, and it's all weird.