Milo

My friend on discord said something and I can't help but relate to it so much
          
          
          'the first thing i look for in a man is his HEART!! the fact that his TITS are IN FRONT OF his heart is NOT MY FAULT!!!!!'
          
          [Copied directly from discord]

Kinda serious question. [TW: surgery, and stuff]
          
          Skip if you want
          [Tldr at the end]
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I want to get a mastectomy. It's the process where you completely remove your breasts. From the lymphnodes and tissue to the blood vessels and nipples. It completely removes it. 
          
          How is that different from top surgery?
          
          Top surgery has reconstructive surgery. They manipulate your body to have a more masculine or feminine chest.
          
          How is that different then breast reduction surgery?
          
          Breast reduction is what the name is, the reduce your boobs. They take off the extra fate and meat.
          
          What side affects may this have?
          
          Swelling, pain, scars. The normal stuff, and also might have my arms swell and hurt a bit, depending on how they do the incisions. 
          
          Why do I want to do this? 
          
          I have boulders on my chest that I am 89% certain that if I remove them my astma will get better, I'll be able to breath and exercise more, and that I won't have trouble sleeping.
          
          What does this do?
          
          It basically takes off everything that makes a boob or whatever men have. It'll leave behind scars but it'll be flat [or as flat as scars can be]
          
          
          My question is if I should bring this up to my father. I am a minor. I don't have control over my medical life yet. This won't count as plastic surgery or whatever, if anything it will [to my calculations] improve my health. 
          
          Also I don't have a single clue on how to take care of these things and my over the shoulder boulder holders make things worse tbh
          
          Tldr: what a mastectomy is, how it works, why I want is, the side effects, and if I should tell my dad or not

Just casually browsing ao3 and what do I see?
          
          
          
          
          
          DR. STRANGES REQL NAME IS STEPHEN???????
          
          
          WHAT

TW: a lot of stuff
          YOU CAN IGNORE THIS
          
          
          
          To clarify, I don't plan on conducting anything that may be implied in this post unless said otherwise.
          
          
          I may be slightly passively suicidal. Not in the 'constantly having suicidal thoughts' way, but more of a 'I wonder what it would feel like to go splat' way.
          
          I don't harm myself, I have unhealthy coping methods [biting nails, scratching, etc], but I do not cut my arms, legs, sides, chest, neck, stomach, or anywhere else.
          
          I'm morbidly curious. More than I should be. I often think about extensive harm being done to my body, without any intent to act on it. Most of it is 'I wonder what it would be like if I hit my eye instead of my ocular bone when I fell those years ago' or 'I kinda wonder what it would be like to be missing a limb'
          
          I have no intent to act on any of these thoughts. However, words can't describe what it is like. Only those with those injuries know what it is like. Sometimes, I wonder what it would be like to be deaf or blind, but I never intend to cause harm to myself.
          
          While I may be having these thoughts more recently, I've been taking care of myself more than before. I've been exercising, eating healthy, etc. I assume that I may just be morbidly curious, but I also think I am passively suicidal.
          
          Most people when facing peril or danger might panic or freak out, I think that I would be relatively calm. I recently had appendicitis, known for your appendix erupting and most likely killing you. 
          
          Before, during, and after the surgery I got, I was calm. I've had many near death experiences, and I haven't panicked for any of them. The closest I was to panicked was when I fell and hit my head [mentioned earlier] on a table. I was in shock and in pain. That, along with the fall, made it hard[er, I have asthma] to breathe.
          
          In conclusion, before i continue ranting, I am deeply, morbidly curious, somewhat passively suicidal, and probably a psychopath.

Gotta love games where the character you play doesn't really have a set story or personality, making it so that if/when a fanfic is wrote about them, it's so flexible.
          
          Like with the lamb from CoTL, you can make them kind, vengeful, merciful, a bustard, you can take their character and bend it. 
          
          However, this also poses trouble for writers. If you take beau from slime rancher, you don't have any concrete evidence on how they can be presented, it makes it difficult to write them.
          
          
          On the other hand, having a character with a set personality makes it fun to try and flex it while still reminding within the built-in boundaries.
          
          Like if you take, uhh, let's say belle from beauty and the beast, it can be easy to write her, a book loving young lady who cares deeply for those around her.
          
          But it can also make it difficult. Limiting the ways you can have your readers perceive them, limiting your creativity with them. It can make some ideas seem unoriginal.
          
          But either way, both types have their pros and cons.

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Was just reading when I got a notification from someone I follow on Tumblr, and in the tags, they were like, "What it feels like being 23" and I was like 'wow your 23?? Im...[age]' then almost had a mental breakdown because holy fuck I'm mentally older than I am physically and that is so hard to process like I thought I was a few years older than I am then I jzust had the world shattering realization that no, I shouldn't be making the type of jokes I do.
          
          
          Anygays, how are yall??

Just scrolled to my earliest post on here (that's recorded at least) and it's from June 1st 2021??

@SashaMysteryhoofSSO probably, do you know how long it has been since we last talked? 

@SashaMysteryhoofSSO do you think you could tell me when and how we met?? It might help uog my memory, I know to many people