Michelle

Hey there, guys.
          
          It's been over a year since I started making the changes in my life. I've been meaning to give you an update sooner, but I've been extremely busy taking care of myself.
          
          My road of recovery is hard. Adjusting to the medications was very difficult at first because I lost ambition to write. But I just needed to be patient with the process of healing. But just when I was starting to feel good....my dog Charlie passed away. It was devastating to lose him. He was such a happy, playful dog. I broke down in my mom's arms when she told me he was gone. It's been 6 months since he died and I miss him every single day. We still have his brother, Hunter, keeping us going. You all know that when you lose a pet....it's losing a member of the family. It's a hard thing to go through. My recovery got complicated after losing Charlie. I had a hard time grieving while battling my depression. But I had to keep going for Charlie because I know he is happy in Heaven.
          
          Right now, I'm doing a bit better mentally & emotionally. I'm still on medication and will tapper off when I feel ready. Don't know when I'll be ready to stop the meds because it's helped me make the changes in my life. Compared to where I was just a year ago....I can honestly say that I am happier. Not saying that everything is perfect, but I continue to take things one day at a time because I know recovering is hard and I still have a long bumpy road ahead of me.
          
          Also, I have been working on story ideas, but my confidence in my writing took a hard blow during my recovery and I still struggle with it. I hope I'll be back soon writing & publishing stories soon. I also miss all of you! I miss reading your stories, chatting & laughing with you guys, so I hope we can do that again very soon. :)
          
          I wanna say thank you for your support & patience throughout this difficult time. Thank you all for being there. I love you all so much!!
          
          Thank you and I hope to be back again soon. Bye :)
          ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

If you think about making another AEW detectives book can you do a sign up where people can put their characters in your book and make it that way because you did a awesome job on the last one but just make this one about just AEW wrestlers please 

Hey There Pal.
          
          Just wanted to check up and see how you're doin'. Hopefully well.
          
          I'm doing pretty good myself, same old, same old.
          
          Anyway, hope you're doing Well. See ya.

Hey there, guys.
          
          It's been a while, huh? It's actually been a year, if you exclude my Bray Wyatt song I posted a couple of months ago. Damn, I miss him so damn much.
          
          
          
          Well, I uh....I decided to take a break last November with the intention of coming back in the New Year to continue my books....but if you know anything about mental health, it doesn't give you a break. It's a constant 24/7 thing.
          
          So, difficult times became hard times and hard times became worse times. I was just spiralling week after week and month after month. I went to the doctor and I'm on medication. But adjusting to the drugs took me away from any ambition to write and to do anything creatively, which feels terrible and frustrating because I'm an artist. All I love to do is create, whether it's drawing, painting, writing songs or writing stories....so, to lose my drive and ambition to do all those things....it feels like I lost myself. But I'm beginning to feel a little bit better. Not sure when I'm gonna start writing again though. It's a slow process to adjust to the pills and especially also to making all the changes I need to make in my life to get better. 
          
          I apologize for being away for so long and I'm not sure when I'll be back on a regular basis or when I'll be updating my stories....but I hope to be back soon once I've adjusted and become comfortable with the changes I'm making to get myself better and out of this deep, deep darkness. 
          
          I hope you all can try to understand. Thank you for reading this important message. Hope you all have a good day and a wonderful holiday season coming up with your loved ones.
          
          I'll see you all again soon. Bye.

My song & tribute to Bray Wyatt.
          
          
          You stepped into the darkness of my life
          With your lantern shining so bright
          Speaking words that no one understood
          But somehow you knew only I would
          You lead me straight through the darkness
          Told me there was nothing to be scared of
          Facing my demons is what you taught me
          Defeated my demons with The Wyatt Family
          No one will ever be able to understand
          How you have my whole world in your hands
          
          You're the colour red
          In a world full of black and white
          You're inside my head
          Every single day and every night
          You're inside my heart
          The only lantern shining in the dark
          You're The Eater Of Worlds
          Who'll always mean the world to this girl
          
          You lead me to your rocking chair spotlight
          Where only you could shine so bright
          Told scary stories in the form of riddles
          And you told us all about Sister Abigail
          I will always remember that special night
          That I became one of your many fireflies
          Everything around you became a better place
          Just with your laughter and your embrace
          No one will ever be able to understand
          Why you have my whole world in your hands
          
          You're the colour red
          In a world full of black and white
          You're inside my head
          Every single day and every night
          You're inside my heart
          The only lantern shining in the dark
          You're The Eater Of Worlds
          Who'll always mean the world to this girl
          
          Your smile will forever be in our minds
          Your laughter will forever be in our hearts
          Your voice will always be heard around us
          Your presence will always be felt around us
          You will forever be missed by us all
          As our many tears continue to fall
          You still have the whole world in your hands
          Keep holding the whole world in your hands
          
          You're the colour red
          In a world full of black and white
          You're inside my head
          Every single day and every night
          You're inside my heart
          The only lantern shining in the dark
          You're The Eater Of Worlds
          Who'll always mean the world to this girl
          
          
          Love You, Bray Wyatt!!