MrRandomFromSanDiego

Back from Mexico, time to go back to making chapters… after work

ZachMecham

Hey, I’m curious on something in your Demon slayer story, does Y/N have a love interest or will he not have one?
          
          Also, I love the prologue. It really hooked me in keep up the great work man and I’m excited for the next part of the story.

MrRandomFromSanDiego

Sorry I’m in Mexico right now and the data is rubbish, but yes he will have a love interest and I appreciate the love :)
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Luciferuf

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@ MrRandomFromSanDiego Unluckily i know and notice parents treat each children different, i know from my family or other family friends that have the same problem. 
          Its not your younger brother the "golden boy" because probably you had both the same possibilities or maybe your parents couldnt afford to gives you the same things they are giving him, or maybe there is something that you dont see about your brother, but i can tell you everyone has to work hard and shortcut dont exist or bring just more problems. 
          I just want to tell you that im sorry you are sad and i hope you'll get better, but this is how the world is, everybody has their shit to deal, we cant see all the problem of each person lives throught nicknames or apparences and its not sure anything can fix everything but i know if you try your best you can fix many of your problem if you just apply. 
          I dont know your brother or parents, i am sorry for the previous messagge, i missunderstand, and i hope they'll figure out how sad you are, maybe they can be more helpful than i can ever be and help you better than a stupid messagge from a stranger.
          btw, i believe in you and i know if you try you can do whatever you want.
          And last, seriusly you need health insurance to get a psychiatrist? If so america should stop giving money to the army and give it where needed like school and hospitals (like its so easy and obvious).
          maybe I am being arrogant and presumptuous by acting like a know-it-all but this is how i see the world, i hope this view may helps you from your side.

MrRandomFromSanDiego

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If I’m really a fucking mistake to God himself then why the fuck doesn’t he just give the someone the free will to run me over?! I’m his mistake right? My little brother is the golden boy isn’t he?! Then why doesn’t God one day give me a heart attack?! I’m just a waste of space right?! Soccer, martial arts, now the fucking Marines!!! I tried to do EVERYTHING!!! WHAT MORE DOES HE WANT FROM ME?!?! 
          
          He loves my little brother so much to give him a lot of opportunities to make him succeed!! Make him win against me every single time! Why can’t I have that?! Was it because my little brother wasn’t planned by my parents?! Did God himself felt bad and gave him everything?! WHY IS HE FUCKING CRUEL TO ME?!?!

MrRandomFromSanDiego

@Luciferuf I had anemia as a baby, I’m surprised they even said I can’t join due to that, I don’t think I have it
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Luciferuf

@ Luciferuf  and hadnt you said you have anemia? Why trying being a marine? There are many easier jobs that doesnt need to be at the best of the shape, you can try to be a poet or something like that, or a writter, an actual one with your own stories and ocs. It wont be as gaining as marines job but better than being jobless. I am trying to share my idea and hope it may helps you. Dont worry too much.
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MrRandomFromSanDiego

@Luciferuf my parents aren’t the problem, I love them. It’s God. I meant to his eyes my little brother is his golden child. It’s frustrating!!
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MrRandomFromSanDiego

I see others around me, have an easy life. Bright future, successful, having opportunities, and making their families so proud. My little brother has the potential to be amongst those people and he’s just 15 years old. Everything he does or touches, he is automatically a master at it. It was like God himself made him the Golden child of the family and completely gave up on building me. I always lived under his shadow. He beats me in everything and always gets over me in things we both do. Opportunities come to him and what makes me upset is that he doesn’t want any of them. What’s crazy is that he wasn’t planned. There was never meant to be a third child, just me and my other brother. But one careless mistake lead to a miracle. A boy full of talent. A successful little boy who will probably be the one to make my parents proud. That was supposed to be me since I was born first but… life said no…
          
          I’m lost, struggling financially and emotionally. Letting people down is what I’m good at apparently. I hate that. I don’t picture myself successful in the future. I mostly see myself in a crappy apartment, or worse, on the streets.

Luciferuf

@ Luciferuf  pps, others lives looks like this but we dont see the backgrounds. I suggest you to look zerocalcare on netflix tear along the dotted line.
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Luciferuf

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@ MrRandomFromSanDiego  fucking sad. The world works like this. For my point of view, dont be sad cause you are not a dissapointment. No one can live alone in this world and when you meet the person of your life some of the weights that are drowning you might be lifted, but not everyone. And for how much it can values, your stories are cool and interesting. Ps, and whoever calling you a dissapointment is an asshole, i dont care if they are your parent, your family or friends, no one can choose your life except yourself and the only one who can judge you is yourself. And try to stay positive.
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N3onKn1ght

@MrRandomFromSanDiego I'm in the same boat as you man, except I'm the little brother and my older brother's the one more successful than I am. He's taller, stronger, faster, smarter. Sometimes it's hard for me to even just talk to him without thinking that I could never measure up to him
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MrRandomFromSanDiego

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I’m 19 years old… next year I turn 20. I’m at a fucking age where I’m supposed to live alone and be successful. But no, here I am living with my parents.
          
          I don’t know what to do for my future. I did everything, everything to try and succeed and to live a better life but I fail at everything. I said I was going to join the marines, but I failed my first Avsab exam. I expected to pass the physical exam and retake the written exam again next month but apperantly, I need two waivers for Anemia and Depression. I tried to get them, but with no health insurance, I can’t get them. My recruiter wanted them ASAP but I didn’t give him anything. What’s worse is that his boss will be mad. He told me specifically that he hates it when his time is wasted when guiding someone to success. Meaning if I back out now, he will be pissed off about it. My parents had high hopes for me to succeed in the US ARMY but here I am, showing how much of a failure I am to them, a lost cause their first son is.