MsRecluse

I left wattpad for months just for personal reasons, but I didn't expect after coming back here several authors left their works undone and some deleted, including yours.🥹 The first I checked after coming back was your stories progress, and It saddened me so much that your book 1 and book 2 got removed. I hope you didn't deleted it, author. 
          
          You made my days and nights before so meaningful. Those times of waiting and yearning for more chapters were so memorable even with just a notification and announcement from you. 
          
          I hope you're doing so well, author. Stay healthy, always. Be free of those negative energies from negative comments.
          
          I would like to approach you through messages, but upon checking your ig, I couldn't find you. I'm sure that I followed you in ig, because we even talked there for couple messages.🥹
          
          It is really a loss for us that we wouldn't know how will neev's and ansel's adventure will end, along with their friends.🥹 
          

Does anyone else feel like they're going to die if they never find out how FMTIOY ends? Like, I genuinely cannot leave this story without knowing how it all plays out.

I miss your books so much 

I think sometimes we become so consumed by the negative aspects of something that we forget it may have also brought comfort, strength, or healing into someone else’s life. Yes, I’m talking about FMTIOY. For a long time, I was so focused on the fear of the wrong message being taken from this story that I stopped seeing the good it had done too. But after reading all your comments, messages, and experiences shared with me, I realized something I genuinely hadn’t understood before.
          I never knew Neev’s journey had impacted some of you so deeply. I never knew this story became a source of comfort for some of you during your darkest periods, or that you found strength in Neev’s resilience when you needed something to hold onto the most. And hearing that honestly overwhelmed me emotionally because that was always the true heart of this book from the very beginning. HEALING.
          I am so unbelievably conflicted after reading all your messages. A part of me still doesn’t want to continue the book because of the moral dilemma surrounding it. But another part of me desperately wants to see the end of this journey with all of you because I have spent so many years living with these characters in my head that they no longer feel fictional to me anymore.
          They exist in the smallest parts of my daily life now. Sometimes I hear a specific part of a song I once imagined for Neev and Ansel, and suddenly the entire story comes rushing back into my mind. Sometimes while writing Theo’s dialogues, I get reminded of Kyler because they share similar energy in certain ways.

Where is the First Story? I haven't finished reading it. Please Author bring it back 

Still not over fmtioy disappearance..... I just keep visiting this page....... It was always hard to use Wattpad..... Mainly because it was not working...... Using vpn now.....just for this story I used to beg my sister for some money to use vpn ...... Like literally I would make deal with her that I would do all your home work and house chores ..... Write her project for 2 weeks..... To take some money for vpn.........in Wattpad there is no story like this....... Now I will not beg my sister for money...... Now I will not be on this platform...... I was going to give up on Wattpad but I found this story.....even on hiatus.... Author kept giving us character info..... Different perspectives.... Ansel back story ........ It breaks my heart that I am not able to read it again and leaving this story which was a part of my daily routine unfinished..... And that too at a point where their future is uncertain.... During hardship of their life ....... Noooooo ...... can't get over this.........I wish to find a partner like ansel......I have never been in a relationship before......I know what is love because of this story... because of ansel....love of neev.....love of Kyler and Nathan.....love of genesis.... everyone taught me love is selfless ......love is pure....I am crying while writing this.... actually.....this masterpiece will always be with me in my heart.....maybe my first love is ansel...... it's a secret..... please no telling okkk.....lots of love to author always ......

when I first found FMTIOY... it was, obviously, an ongoing story. And for this kind of reason, I usually avoided reading ongoing stories.But after reading the first few chapters... something about this book just screamed  "you HAVE to give it a chance... otherwise youre just missing out." Now, yes, the book may be gone for now. But even if we never finish it, I'll always be insanely grateful that this book popped up that night because it genuinely changed me. It made me view things like love, empathy, character, trauma... in a much deeper manner.  I wish everyone could experience the emotion and happiness this book gave back to me. 

Seems like every time I open this app, it’s just another piece of bad news waiting for me.

First Unconditionally, then Misty and now this...

My apologies, after wallowing in the sadness and disappointment a lil bit , I realise that more than of us , you have invested the most time energy emotion efforts into this book, you are way more connected to it than of us could be .
          If this pains us so much , I can only imagine it would be so much worse for you and yet you still choose to do the right thing and think about the consequences of your action , you are a very nice person for that and i hope uk that author , most of us wouldn't do it but u did .
          I respect you so much for that 
          But author i also don't want you to feel too bad , most things in life by themselves are neutral , people use it positively or negatively ( eg telegram could be used both for getting study material for kids who can't afford and disgusting criminals for their vile thing , I don't think it makes telegram bad or good ) 
          So pls don't beat yourself over this 
          I am feeling guilty to admit that I have also been a part of that dark romance audience or someone who likes obsession type stuff wtv , but the contrast of zev and ansel has made me see the difference between love and obsession and how loving someone and being loved is so much better than being an 'object ' of obsession where the other completely dehumanizes you. 
          U wrote something and diff people took diff things out of it , imo it's not your fault ( no offense)