Moonbin…
I didn’t start getting into Astro till the fall, and he was the one who got me into them. I was obsessed with his star quality in the 98 line’s “Tiger Inside” cover. Words really can’t describe how much this hurts right now… he was genuinely a gem in a world of sandstone, and he is already so deeply missed. I can’t imagine what Sua and his family is going through. I can’t imagine what the members of Astro are going through. I’m literally crying and shaking as I type this and I didn’t even know him well.
Survivor’s guilt is 100% valid. Nobody is ever allowed to tell you how you should fee or how much you should grieve. It all hurts differently for everyone, and that’s okay. It’s okay to express the pain you’re feeling. Me personally, I feel like standing in the middle of a low, moving river, just to feel something engulf me, yet pass me by. My heart is heavy, my breath is shallow, my chest is tight and my hands continue to tremble.
Please remember to be kind to your mind, and to be kind to each other. You truly never know what someone is going through…
RIP Moonbin.
You are forever loved.
Grace