@Mushy2120 Look, I understand how you are feeling right now. Take a few deep breaths. In and out. In and out. I want to dissect several points for you.
1. We all make mistakes. We have to recognize that fact. If we don't, we would go insane.
2. It is not all your fault. You were trying to help this community, but in the heat of the moment, we all get emotional, go too far, and make mistakes. Heck, even I do! (whoops, watch your language, Ben!)
3. You are a Christian, right? The Bible says that no matter how many mistakes we make, God is ready to forgive (1 John 1:9). As long as you have put your trust in Jesus Christ, as long as you have believed that He died for you and rose again so that you can be saved, your eternal destination will be heaven no matter what you do. Remember, salvation is not achieved by ourselves; rather, IT IS ALL DONE BY GOD. For without Jesus we can do nothing.
4. God created you for a reason. For God Himself said, "I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart..." (Jeremiah 1:5). And whatever storm comes our way, Jeremiah 29:11 gives us a promise of hope: "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the LORD . 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'"
5. Take a break from Wattpad. A week. A month, even. Before you tell me that last time your break led into disaster, remember that that time I was not here. This time, I am, and I will keep an eye on things for you. I am not planning on taking another break anytime soon.
6. GO EAT!!! You are a growing teenager. You need food to help you grow and mature. It is extremely risky for you to not eat enough. I insist. You can ignore everything I said before, but DO NOT IGNORE THIS SUGGESTION. Wait, this is not a suggestion but AN ORDER FROM BEN. Ignore at your own peril.
Hope this helps, even though I may sound firm, even harsh. I need to force that negativity out from you. :)
Blessings,
creative_ben
